What I have learned...

So here is the thing when asking God for patience you must take into consederation that He most likely will give a lot of opportunities to use said patiences that you asked for...
So then when you aren't practicing how do you expect to ever get anywhere?
Well I have learned that there is this famous famous quote...practice makes perfect...really comes into great play for this situation I have put myself in...
You see I keep asking for patiences yet when the time comes for me to use patiences... I end up getting frustrated and saying something like "man I need someone to pray that I get some patiences"
Which anyone who prays it is indeed much appreciated :))
But okay analogy time...
If someone is sick and they ask for someone to pray they get better yet never rest or take any medicine to help them get better how much longer will it take for them to get better then if they had taken medicine and rested?
Put it this way...a lot longer...
So maybe we should be praying instead
"Lord, help me practice this said patiences in which I am asking for"

And that I what I have come learned today :)))



xoxo,
bekah

Ahhhhh!

I didn't put my sign off!!!!!!!!!!



xoxo,
bekah



Ps. This gets an lol XDD

New app?!??

So I have now found a totally easier way to blog on my iTouch that yes I have YET to put down since I got it but that is besides the point...
So anyways I was thinking that there seems to be an app (shorthand for application lol) for just about
EVERYTHING!
Then I thought maybe there is an app for blogger?!?!
So with some searching and reading I have found it! Infact I am using it right now to write this entry! Amazing isn't it! I think yes!
WooHoo! Excitement! Lol.
So yeah it's great :))))

i enjoy the fact that i have

nothing better to do than to sit on my laptop and give you all a lovely
UPDATE!


so basically i am sitting in the living room listening to the sound of my dad playing WOW and my mom is watching the amazing race.
which is leading me to a small rant...
OKAY!
so when you are on a show such as the amazing race, or survivor, or whatever your reality show of choice may be, why must you say something along the lines of
"I'm on (fill in reality show here)"
clearly we know you are on the show or else you would not be on our TV screen! (or in my family's case, laptop/desktop screen)

these crazy people...


OKAY! moving on.
not much is going on in my lovely life but my dear mother did the gracious wonders of reminding me of the fact that i have one more day to drink soda after today...and then she is taking me to some place that is going to jab squishy whatnots in between my teeth to create space so that the following week they can add these mental devices that will in return make my teeth straight

or if you would like a simplier way of explaining that

basically i'm getting spacers tuesday and braces next tuesday...lovely right?
well i'm actually looking forward to the fact that i will be so close to having straight teeth! yay!
but the pain...oh buddy not looking forward to that
see i have no tolerance what so ever for pain! like none.
its crazy. so me and pain are like oil and water.
but in the words of my mother...
beauty is pain...
why couldn't she say beauty is like i don't know a walk in the park?
that would have been nice.


so yeah i'm rambling now but like i said...i really have NOTHING better to do...yay!



xoxo,
bekah

100 Books For 2009. [update #3]

first off i believe i might have mentioned this before that i was giving this up...
well i'm not going to now!
though i have NO idea how many more books i have...so umm...
i'm gonna say i was at 60? maybe...
and try to read 40 more books before the end of the year...HAHA!


this is all a joke by the way to instead tell you that....

I GOT A KINDLE! (sorta)
what i really got was an iTouch which i mentioned before and i totally LOVE it!
but on this so lovely iTouch it has a kindle application that i can download on and so now i not only have an iTouch but also a KINDLE!
and that makes me VERY VERY VERY happy =]]]]
see...
happy face =DDDDDD


lol.


well i have to go to Bible study now so peace out yall!



xoxo,
bekah

I got an iTouch

And I love it!! This probably means more post too so everyone should be happy :)) lol but anyways I love this thing and I can't believe how many things I can do on it too! But anyways I have to go study so yeah ttyl!!


xoxo,
bekah

so now that i am actually awake....

NEW MOON WAS AMAZING!
oh so so so so so so so so worth only getting three hours of sleep for!
seriously.
sorry i didn't post this yesterday
i was running on three hours of sleep all day...
it would NOT have been a pretty sight
lol!

well its off to work at the shop now!
and try to fight off the caffine zombies =]]]



xoxo,
bekah

17.17.17.17.17

17 hours left
till i see NEW MOON!
I'M SO EXCITED!
AND I JUST CAN'T HIDE IT!


hehe =]]



i have a feeling today will be a long day...




xoxo,
bekah

a carrie underwood song...

is stuck in my head.
due to the fact that last night my friends and I were singing country songs =]]
it was fun.

also.
tip of the day.
if you are going to buy mascara.
make sure to check and see if it says waterproof on it or not.
because if you are not looking to buy waterproof.
then you are going to have a pretty hard time trying to get it off.
not speaking from experience or anything here.
*cough cough*


that reminds me!
i've been sick.
and its annoying.
and i'm done with it.
my throat hurts today.
its lame.
but its like 6:48 right now.
which means i should probably get UP AND AT THEM.
or GET A MOVE ON.
basically,
i have to go get ready now.
so peaces.
dueces.
you know the drill.



xoxo,
bekah

i have come to terms.

that me and guys.
not working out right now in my life.
so maybe this is a sign...
hmmm....
let's just forget they are on the earth for now and make good grades?
sounds good.
eh, sorta.
i'm working on it.
but yeah i'm sorta like just done with that issue now.
its like over with.
blah.
and yeah that was real. and it was great. it wasn't real great though.
haha!
okay yeah seriously i'm 16 why do i have to have a boyfriend?
i'll tell you what i surely do not!
go me.
i'm gonna just say forget guys.
life is a dance
so dance with God
He'll let the right guy cut in =]]]



xoxo,
bekah

life changes in the blink of an eye
so pay attention and don't miss it
because before you know its over and done

hey look a real post! rock on.

HELLO BLOGGING WORLD! I COME IN PEACE! I AM A MERE BLOGGER WANTING TO INFORM THE INTERNET ON MY WHEREABOUTS AND CRAZY LIFE! DON'T KILL ME!

and that is what i would say if blog ever became a planet and blogger.com was a city bloggers could like live there! maybe. i might change the intro or outro. who knows!

but since that will probably most likely never in a million years happen!
how about an update! *crowd goes wild*

okay so if anyone follows my facebook status(www.facebook.com/bekahlaughs)most of you should know that i have my
liscense!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yes major excitement there!
and so tonight was my first night driving by myself and it went awesome and i love it and its just so GREAT! haha. i've been on a happy high lately...it scares my friends =]]]

but anywho i'm tired and have math homework that still needs to be done...ugh...
BYE BLOGGING WORLD! YOU SHALL BE MISSED!


xoxo,
bekah

Don't watch your life pass right before your eyes because of one mistake. Rather go out and fix it. Stand up for what you want and fight for it.

Chocolate is good for you. It helps really helps. At least that is what they say in harry potter =]]] that's good enough for me!

I'm sitting here in health class bored out of my mind. Man i wish i had internet on my phone right about now....

Quote of the day. Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine. Thoughts anyone?

guess who loves their mother?!

MEEEEE!!
yup. see my mom got me a curling iron and i love it! because i can make my hair all prettierful! and its not hard at all!

oh also because i suck at getting online and updating you guys do expect some updates from the cellur device because i can remember to do that...on rare occasions...lol
but the post will be shorter but its all good! anywho! i love you guys! really i do. i know i don't act like it because i NEVER update. but i do love you guys and thanks for reading my ramblings and laughs and nonsense that i post on here attempting to entertain everyone =]]]]]
better finish getting ready for school! toodles!



xoxo,
bekah

so................................

you all really do have the right to hate me.
because its like october 2nd.
and my last post was august 9th.

I'M SORRY!

i have been crazy busy (sorta).
getting use to my schedule (mission accomplished).
and really didn't have time to write (lie).
did i mention i'm sorry? (yeah).
oh and my life has been just not interesting (lie again).

lol.

fighting with one's self can be entertaining.
anyways.
okay i'm making excuses.
first. i was in mourning on failing my driver's test.
then. i had to get use to my school schedule.
then. i really was busy.
then. i was NOT in the mood to talk.
and now.
i have no more excuses.
so i figured. alright, i'll start blogging again!
so here i am =]]]]
aren't you so lucky...
yes. you really are. to be able to read the mind that i have.
well its a gift. truly.
and i'm not conceited at all either!
nor can i spell or wish to see if i even spelled that word correctly because i'm lazy.
yeah. you def are lucky.
=D

okay okay okay.
so life has been crazy.
sorta.
and i've finally gotten to a point where i am just like whatever life, here God, you deal with it, because i CAN NOT! infact my dealing with life is an EPIC FAIL MAJOR.
for real.
so i'm just giving it to God to deal with and He's just gonna tell me what to do.
so some fun news?
well tonight was the homecoming game! we won! WOO HOO! go wildcats!
and then tomorrow is the homecoming dance! can you say excitement?! for real!
i CAN NOT wait!
i'm going with marlee, her bf, scott, and then scott's friend robert is going with us as well! its going to be so much fun!
i'll post pictures afterwards of course! but yeah its going to be a blast!
but anyways i should probably go to bed because i'm working tomorrow and then going to get ready. then going over to marlee's. then going to the dance...then waffle house...and oh! it will be a busy day! but i can't wait!

peace out homies!


xoxo,
bekah

TOMORROW!

I'M GOING TO GO AND GET THAT LICENSE!
WOOO HOOO!
I'M SO EXCITED!
LIKE YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA!
PRAY I PASS!


*prays*



xoxo,
bekah

i figured...

since i did mention that i was working on something new...
and really didn't tell you what i was writing about this time...
you guys wouldn't know then if you would want to be on a mailing list or not...
SO THEN! just a little fyi
its from a guy's point of view and its more sci-fi ish...so if you are interested let me know!
alrighty guys! i have to go read some books and watch some movies and do some writing...hehe =]]


xoxo,
bekah

so its like nearly been a month...

AND...
i'm sorry. i started to slack on my blog posting didn't i?
ugh. i need to work on that.
its just like. i get in moods of writing all the time...
then i'm like psh i got nothing to say...
and then its like no one reads it anyways why bother!!!!
and then its like oh i miss it...
and then its like okay i need to post again...
and then i like actually post something!
haha =]]

okay so update?
well lets see...
i had a pretty good fourth...got to hang out with meg! totally missed her!
and then i hung out at the blakley's and played games...that was fun!
lets see...then on the 13th i went to OHIO! and just got back earlier this week...
Ohio was great! i got to see the fam and friends i hadn't seen in like TWO YEARS! missed them greatly! so that was awesome to get to actually hang out with them...
and now i'm just living life in alabama again!
though we did move while i was in ohio to a new house and its great! i love the house...its pretty much excatly the same as my house in fayetteville so it really feels like home so that's nice...of course its missing the pool though...lol...oh and did i mention that its like right behind the coffee shop! yeah to convinces is very nice!
and lets see...i will hopefully be getting my liscense in about a week! ooo exciting! i can't wait for that! i really wanna drive by myself and be able to like go hang out with friends and everything! that would be like super nice!
lets see...school starts soon...and nate is leaving for basic soon...and britta is coming soon as well and is going to redo my hair when she gets here! yay! lol.
umm...everything has been really great!
the negative though...i have to take finals to validate my credits for school...ugh!
but i took the history one like yesterday and passed it! yay! only english and math left and those are strong subjects for me so i'll be fine =]]
but yeah i think that is all the updating i needed to do!
i really do need to start reading more! so i'm gonna go and work on that...
oh i'm also working on something new...but i'm not making a blog of it...so if you want to read it then email me or leave a comment letting me know and i'll stick you on a mailing list or something like that...


OH! LASTLY! before i go...
THIS IS MY 100TH BLOG POST! WOO HOO! CELEBRATING 100 BLOG POSTS =]]

xoxo,
bekah

100 Books For 2009. [update #2]

ALRIGHTY THEN!
so its the beginning of July now...
and i'm currently working on book number 57
and hopefully in the next week...
i'll be done with book number 64!
got an 8 book long series from the wonderful Mrs. Blakley and the books aren't all that long so hopefully i can get through this quickly =]]

please note people that because i am trying to read 100 books this year i have been reading books that i have already read...but OH WELL!
no one made up rules for me! i did =]]
so yeah anyways! gonna get to reading!



xoxo,
bekah

stories...

M.E.L.O.D.Y is OUT
but Eric Drake is still in the picture!
i'm changing my style up a bit
and working on somehting new for you guys...
though i'm not going to give anything away
cause its top top secret!
hehe =]]
I'm working on a pretty crazy 1st chapter that will [hopefully] leave you wanted more and forgive me for getting rid of Melody...
she just wasn't working for me guys...sorry
BUT!
I will tell you that the new Eric Drake has really nothing in common with the old Eric Drake [from M.E.L.O.D.Y] besides the fact that they have the same name
and they only have the same name because I love the name! lol
so that's all. gotta go get ready now so peace out!



xoxo,
bekah

having hawaiian hair.

can have its benefits.
really.
i use to hate my curly hair.
but today.
i love it!
besides when it takes like 5 minutes to do my hair compared to 20 minutes.
yeah, i'll take the 5 minute one.
and besides when my hair is straight it looks flat.
no likey flat hair.
hehe.

so that's all that i can think to talk about.
oh one more thing.
i currently am not totally loving my over bearing imagination.
I can't stick to a story!
as soon as the idea is in my head and i get the first chapter down another idea comes to mind.
lets see here.
is there a job i can get where i can sell book ideas?
hmmm.
looking into it!
haha =]]
that's all now.
i think.
if not i'll just get back on =]]



xoxo,
bekah

Hey guys! I now can post blogs using my cell! How awesome! You will def be hearing more from me now :) not that you didn't already. Lol!
-bekah

so far...

the birthday has been wonderful!
so awesome! thank you to everyone!
especially my family who i've been able to spend such a wonderful time with =]]
totally love them!
gonna hang out for a bit and finish watching confession of a shopaholic with my mommy! then i'm heading out with the friends!
can't wait!
love you guys millions!



xoxo,
bekah

finally...

I'M 16!!!!
AHHHHHHH!
THE EXCITEMENT IS ALREADY SETTLING IN =]]
clearly cause i wasn't even able to sleep in like i was actually aloud to do today...
hehe!
well its off to take a shower and get ready for the day because its not like i'm going to be able to actually fall back asleep now...
=DDD



xoxo,
bekah

toooooo.....

MORROW!
tooooMORROW!
i love ya! tomorrow!
you're only a day away!

hehe =]]



xoxo,
bekah

NEW BLOG!

www.melodyjames.blogspot.com


check.check.check it out.

chapters coming sooon!

third post of the day.

you are probably thinking.
"gosh bekah why must you post so many things in one day"
well my responces are...
1. i just have alot to say and think of them all at different times of the day
2. because i can because its my blog
3. i most likely have something to inform you of
4. or i just have nothing better to do
5. i just want to gosh

hehe =]]

well this extra blog is to inform you all of TWO things

thing ONE!

i said i was going to make a new blog for my story i had posted last week and i am doing that TODAY! like after i'm done with this i'm going straight to making it!
then i will get back on here to tell you all what the URL is so you can go follow it!


thing TWO!

i started writing another new story...from a dream i had last night...yes i'm pulling a stephenie meyer and writing a story based off one scene i remember from my dream! though i do not know if i will make this into a blog yet because like i said i just had the dream last night and need to get more details out and a few things worked before i decide if i'll make the blog.


that's all for now!
toodles!



xoxo,
bekah

ps.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY BRITTA!



xoxo,
bekah

oh my.

just realized.
that like there are only 2 more days left!
AH!
EXCITEMENT!
MAJOR!
eppers.
i'm so happy =]]
like FOR REAL HAPPY!
its going to be such an awesome day!
i can NOT wait!
AH!


[[hehe pardon my excitement but this is exciting]]




xoxo,
bekah

HAPPY DADDY DAY!

This is Bekah
wishing her amazing father a Happy Father's Day!
thanks for everything dad =]]
love you millions!



xoxo,
bekah


ps. SWSF!!!

new blog?! new story?!

OKAY!
i'm thinking of making a new blog for my Melody James story...
i'm about to write more and i would really like for you guys to be able to just follow along and read it =]]
though i usually will post the blogs with the title of the book and i can't think of a title...
i might just do Melody James
but...i do kinda wanna have a title for it...
basically its just going to be a typical story of the new girl in town going to a highschool and is just trying to fit in and finish up well...
almost like me right now...i think that is why i'm excited to write it...
its almost as if i'm writing what i think will happen...or maybe what i'm hoping...or who knows...maybe i'm just excited because the story is more closer to my life in general...
some titles i have thought of are....

"The New Girl In Town"
"Story of my Life"
"Hillside High"

that's really all i can think of...
so help PLEASE!

also...the blog won't be up for a few days because i'm going to go back and rewrite what i have written so far...
i first started writing the book, on paper, in first person and that was alot of fun because you got to see Melody's true character and i liked how much i could see myself in her...then when i went to type it i started writing in third person because i wanted to see how i would do with writing third person...i dont like it that much...in fact alot of the times i caught myself wanting to say "I" and "me" and so i'm going back and rewriting it...that way the book will have more wit and hopefully be a little funnier when you get a chance to really see into the mind of Melody James =]]

OKAY! i think that is all for now...i'm going to go and get to writing!
again! let me know what you guys think =]]



xoxo,
bekah


ps. for those of you (charli) who are against me writing a new story because you want me to continue the others...don't worry! i'm working on the others as well! i tend to like to write in my mind as in think up the next scene and that way its all in my head and i can switch somethings around maybe fix somethings here and there and just adjust it all before i write it out...so don't worry! Kate and Tristan have not left my thoughts! i will finish that book! i love it too much =]]

one week!

one week left! woo hoo!

on the down side though...
my phone really has just fallin off the face of this earth as we know it!
where did it go?
why is it gone?
oh phone why did you run away?!

okay. dramatic.
just a bit. sorry guys!
i'm just sorta grumpy right now.
with the phone issue...
and other issues...
but i want to be happy!
thinking happy then....




xoxo,
bekah

yay! woo hoo! ugh! grr!

those were probably my emotions today...
YAY!
my flight it booked for ohio and i can not wait!
WOO HOO!
i got to go over to a friend's house to hang out and go swimming!
UGH!
i lost my phone.
GRR!
phone is still missing. and my best friend's boyfriend i think does not like me.
whatever, i'm not very fond of him at the moment.
and i still can't find my phone!!!!!!
WHY?!?!?!




xoxo,
bekah



ps. i might be posting more of the story i posted a few days ago on here...
or i might make a new blog for it...
if the second...then i will let you guys know!

look above.

i changed the header again.
it was too long.
and i like this better.
hehe =]]
cause i laugh alot...
and i've been using
"bekahlaughs"
alot lately...so yeah...it stays!



xoxo,
bekah

i'm doing a little complaining...

so bare with me....
OKAY!
my room...
is EEEEEEEEEEEVVVVVVVVVVIIIIIIILLLLLLLL
really it is.
okay so every morning it is freezing cold!
and then the later morning early afternoon
is perfect!
then at night...
ugh its like hot...
and i can't sleep...
i hate my room...
thank GOODNESS we are moving!
WOO HOO!
new room that actually works!
gotta love it...hehe =]]



[[[did i mention only nine days now?!? EXCITED!]]]



xoxo,
bekah

ten days. ten days. OMG! TEN DAYS!

something i have dreamed about since i was little...
is going to happen in ten days!
are you serious?!
only ten days!
really only ten days!!!!
i can NOT believe it!
ep! excitement through the roof!



xoxo,
bekah

I. lovelovelovelove....

finding the perfect name for a character.
so i had an issue.
i needed a name of a guy who was sort of a mystery guy...
with a bit of an edge to him...
but really he is misunderstood...
yet stuck up and things high of himself...
though weirdly sweet in his own way...

basically he was a mix of Tristan/Logan/and Jess
from Gilemore Girls
(yes, when you love a show too much, it ends up showing in your writing)
so anyways. i could not for the LIFE of me come up with a name.
until i figured it out.


so i was talking to a friend who was giving me guy names left and right...
and she had told me the name Drake...
i was thinking about it...i liked it...but not really for a first name...
we then went through a few more names...
then she said Eric...
and it clicked.
Eric Drake.
it's perfect for my character.
it suits him so well...
like its edgey, and unique, and just perfect for him!
here see for yourself....

here is a bit of the new story i'm working on






Just breathe. Come one you can do this. It's just highschool for goodness sake. And you have already been through two years...
Melody James parked and approached the main building of her new highschool that contained the office. She was told to report to the office to get her schedule and locker number. The problem. She was suppose to be in the office an hour ago. Guess that's what happens when you don't set you alarm because you are trying to rebel against your paren'ts moving and they wake you up anyways, at the last minute. Great stuff. Once she reached the office a light breeze of AC blew her way.
Oh thank you whoever invented AC.
“Can I help you?”
A petiete woman stood before her with a bright smile.
“Yes, I'm Melody James. Sorry I'm late...”
“Well you are late missy,” the woman lost her smile for a scorn, “You were suppose to be here over an hour ago so you would be settled by the time first period started.”
“I know. I didn't set my alarm. Woke up late. Got lost on the way here. I'm really sorry. Can I still get my schedule and go to class though?”
The woman puffed out a huge sigh.
“Alright. Here you go, Melody,” the smile returned, “Welcome to Hillside High!”
“Thanks,” Melody smirked and headed out of the office.
She looked down at the list and realized her locker number was 218. She looked up to see what the locker numbers were around her.
21?! Great.
She started walking down the hallway in the direction that showed the numbers increasing. When she hit the end of the hall her problems increased. Now what was she suppose to do? Go upstairs? Sounded like the best idea, though it was the only idea.
She opened the door to the stairs and at the same time collided with another person. Due to the fact Melody was rather clumsy she ended up falling down.
“Ugh. Do you have to make so much noise?”
Melody looked up to see a tall guy standing in front of her.
Did I mention he was dreamy!!
“Ummm. Sorry. Umm. I'm new here. I guess I just lost my footing. Sorry.”
The guy smirked.
“New girl? Oh right, Melody James.”
“H-h-how do you know my name?”
“Student Body President,” he pointed at his chest as if the words would be on a plack on his chest, “Well, not official, I'm the unofficial Student Body President. The one everyone wants. Just didn't make all the 'school' requirements.”
“I see.”
Melody realized she was still on the ground and scrambled around to find her books and papers she had dropped to realize that the myserty boy had already snatched them and was exaiming the paper the lady from the office had given her.
“Looking for your locker?”
Melody stood to her feet, “Um. Yes. Can you help me?”
“Sure.”
He turned and headed back through the door and up the stairs, taking her stuff with him. Melody had no choice but to follow him. She hurried to catch up with him on the small stair case and then came up to another door that opened up to the second level, but the guy didn't go through the door, but rather he continued up the stairs.
“What level are we going to?” Melody asked starting to feel way beyond shy.
“This one right here,” he replied as he pointed to the third level door.
He opened the door and didn't even bother to hold it open for her. Seemed to be set out on a mission to get over with helping her find her locker. They kept walking in silence until he finally stopped almost causing Melody to run into him again.
“Here we are, Ms. James.”
Melody looked over and saw her locker, 218. She had to hand it to him, he did know the school.
“Thanks.”
She reached for her books that were still in his hands and went to open the locker.
It was stuck.
Of course it was. Melody tried and tried again but it would not budge. Not hearing anything behind her she figured the guy had left but then hearing a small giggle she realized he was still there.
“Ugh. It's impossible.”
Out of frustration, Melody kicked the locker and turned around to face the guy who was giggling at her.
“I give up.”
A crooked smirk crossed his face and he moved her aside to have his shot at the locker. With a three simple punches to the locker at the top it swung open with a rose falling out of it.
“Welcome to Hillside High, Melody James,” the guy said smoothly as he handed her the white rose.
“How...”
“It was my locker last year.”
And with that he turned and left.
I don't even know his name!





hope you like it!


xoxo,
bekah

book ideas.

they are just swimming in my head right now!
i wanna write them all but i can't seem to just sit down and write one.
like i'll open up a word document.
start writing on the idea so i dont forget.
then start writing.
but after awhile i get bored with it.
and save it. leave it. say i'll do it later.
then end up with all these started books that probably won't ever have a finished.
hmmm.
good thing i got the rest of my life and several books to finish!
=]]]]


just asking, would any of you guys actually buy them?



xoxo,
bekah

i'm learning something...

apparently...
i didn't realize i could do all this....

even color!!!!!

i do love color...

alright so this is new...

and i think i like it!

yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xoxo,

bekah

everything is good again.

i paid my dad back.
i can drive again and not freak out.
and i'm happy.


well minus a sun burnt sun burn.
everything is good again!
working tomorrow.
12-4!
by myself!
come see me!



xoxo,
bekah

14 days. or 2 weeks.

frankly i prefer 2 weeks...
it sounds shorter.
but with the shorter amount of time.
that means shorter amount of time to know what i'm going to do.
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?
i have no clue.
i'll think of something though.
I WILL.
I PROMISE I WILL.
it just has to happen.
okay. so i'm going to think of something.
gosh.
what am i going to think of?
ugh.
the stress of not knowing what to do for one's birthday...
it sure can be a pain sometimes.
hehe =]]
that's really all the stress i even have to deal with...
God, can the stress stay like this for the rest of my life?
that would be much appreciated =D
hehe.
oh i doubt it.
soon, in only two years.
i'll be off to college with the stress of that,
and then off to get a job with the stress of that,
off to find a place to live with the stress of that,
off to pay for the place i live in with the stress of that,
dang.
you grown ups have too much stress in your life.
how can i get Neverland again?



xoxo,
bekah

Driving.

is evil.
and officially hates me.
we are totally not on speaking terms.
and did i mention i hate the gas petal as well?

Coffee Shop.
I'M SO SORRY!
please don't hate me...
i feel awful and don't expect you to love me anymore...

UGH.
TONIGHT=NOT GOOD.

did i mention i'm really really SUPER sorry!



xoxo,
bekah

there are currently...

SIXTEEN
days till my sweet
SIXTEEN!

EP! excitement all over again!
oh also yesterday the 3rd Gallagher girl book came out!
i really really want it.
like really i do.
but i have ab-so-lute-ly NO money.
sad. yes.
so now i'm faced with waiting till i go and babysit or work for my father to get money.
BUT good news.
i'm working for my dad today!
and working for him saturday!
and babysitting next week!
and working next week!
so i shall have money again!
YAY!
this is a happy thought indeed....
well i have to go eat something now and finish getting myself ready!
TOODLES NOODLES!


xoxo,
bekah

hehe.

i feel like a girlie girl today...
wanna know why?
i'm wearing a dress! yay!
and there is no special something going on today...
i mean unless you count my Bible study tonight...but you don't dress up for that...
but yeah i'm wearing a dress...
see okay here it goes. so the other day well actually...lately
i just wanted to get a ton of sping/summer dresses to wear because hello they are so much more comfortable! and its so better than wearing pants and a shirt
especially in this weather...
so anyways i wanna go buy some dresses...
i end up getting two for the two graduations i went to [Charli's and Nate's]
and then yesterday!
i went shopping with my fav Mrs. Blakley and got three more!
they are totally so cute and i love them!
hehe =]]
i'm a happy camper if you wanted to know.
not to mention its summer time! and i love summer!
and my birthday is in 18 days!
yay!

[yes i will be posting a countdown every day of how many days are left till my birthday...hello people this is important stuff!]
hehe =]]

alrighty i'm out! gotta finish getting my self beautifyed!
peaces. deuces. byes.


xoxo,
bekah

its happened.

i'm addicted to free cell.
so addicted that i do believe this is an unhealthy addiction.



*thinks*




OH WELL!


xoxo,
bekah

hello world.

so guess what?
there are only 19 more days until i'm officially 16!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
that's exiciting, yes?
though the problem you ask...
I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO!!!!!!!!!
UGH.
blah.
grr.
hmmm.
okay.
IDEA!
nvm.

you know what? i'm just going to go and hang out with my friends and be happy and pary and act like a crazy person. no.
i do that anyday...
hehe =]]
i dont know yet. i'll think of something though i'm sure!
i mean come on its my sweet sixteen.
its a big one!
and yeah. this is important stuff my friends...
well maybe.
gosh why do people put such a big things on certain birthdays. i mean really?
why the numbers
1
5
7
10
13
16
18
21...
what are those like some special numbers to something?!?!
hmmm....
i could be cracking a CIA or FBI code here....
haha!
alright i have to go to church now!
talk to you peoples...
another day!



xoxo,
bekah

if you will look to your left...

you will notice the lovely Boldly Going Coffee Shop badge
from facebook...
this is the coffee shop my parents own!
if you are in Enterprise, AL
come check it out!


xoxo,
bekah

so this morning...

i realized two things...

ONE.
i'm turning sixteen in twenty-three days!
yay!

TWO.
i'll be driving by myself in two months!
yay!

also.
THREE.
i apparently like to write out my numbers...
its an odd day my friends.
like okay.

I had to wake up early.
to help my father out at the coffee shop.
now i'm home.
but will have to go back into the coffee shop at like...
umm...noon or one ish to work till 5:45
then i have to babysit...
ugh!
i'm going to pass out!
i think.
maybe not.


BUT! good news.
i might be able to see Taylor Swift in concert tomorrow!
yay!
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!
then i'll have to babysit again on friday...
gosh i just feel like a working queen...

*dancing queen...young and sweet...only
umm
fifteen!*

HAHA! you know you love me?
well maybe...
i'm just crazy alright!



xoxo,
bekah

I'm not keeping up with this!

AHHHHHHHHHHH!
there, blogspot, you have driven me to the point of screamo madness.
haha.
i'm so dramatic sometimes.
but i gotta keep life interesting.
anyways!
so many things are just like i dont know falling apart or something.
like.
well okay really its only one thing.
i'm TRYING [trying being the key word] to start a teen girl Bible study on Monday nights.
last week it went pretty good, though only two people came, we basically just talked about what we were going to do for the summer and how things were going to go down.
and it was great! i mean i loved being able to talk to Olivia and Shelby and get to know them better! they totally are awesome.
well then this week was going to be our first official meeting.
but no one can come!
so sad. and now i'm totally clueless as to what to do tonight. i mean i would go hang out with my lovely friend megan who i haven't seen in forever it seems! but she's like on house arrest or something by her mother. sad.
i can't get a hold of my friend amelia to see her.
and all my mom wants to do is clean.
BUM-to the-MER.
oh and nate and britta already left for dothan to go shopping so i can't go up there either.
you know what?
i might just read.
that is what i'll do.
read.
reading is good. and i'm getting to a pretty good part in the book i'm reading so yeah. that is what i will do.
BLAH. i'm so tired!
on the up note i did get to meet the lady i'm going to be babysitting for on wednesday and so that is exciting!
making money!
or well trying to.
haha!
gonna go read now!


xoxo,
bekah

IT'S SUMMER TIME!

so i'm totally excited that its summer time!
actually i have been on summer break for two weeks now...
but last week i was busy due to the fact i was pre-pre-paring for nate's graduation then left for charli's graduation!
then this past week i was with family all week cause nathan just graduated last night!
WOO HOO!

so now i'm officially on summer break!
yay me!
looking forward to Summer '09!
i'll try and get more reading in this summer!


xoxo,
bekah

AHHHHHHHHH!

my brother is graduating from highschool today!
DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS?!?!


I'LL BE GRADUATING IN TWO YEARS!
I'm like a freakin Junior in HIGHSCHOOL!
can you believe that?!?!


oh this is crazy.
beyond crazy!



xoxo,
bekah

SCHOOL IS DONE!

well okay school has been done. since like.
May 15th.
but reason behind me not posting is due to the fact that i was still HUGELY busy.
and i'm still busy. because nathan is graduating highschool in...
THREE[four] DAYS! can you believe it?!?!
i still can't.
well sadly this will be short cause i have to go clean.
family starts coming in this afternoon!
can't wait!
byes everyone!



xoxo,
bekah

excuse. i think yes.

hey guys!
so i'm not posting alot lately because i'm currently in my last two weeks of school so i've been working on all that nonsense and so i therefore have no time to sit here and ramble on and on about my life and what needs fixing and what needs changing. so for the rest of this week and next week i most likely wont post anything.
and yes this is a legit excuse.
i mean its my education people! important stuff.
haha.
anyways! i'm off to get some food and then get to work on my school!
speak with you all after the 15th!



xoxo,
bekah

yet another post. sorry but i have another update!

100 books for 2009!
okay so at the beginning of April I was sitting at 20 books.
yes i went and looked back to make sure...
and now its the 1st of May and I have read...
[going to get sheet of books]
and i have read eight books in the last month but by the end of the day i'll have read nine books because i only have 70 pages left in the current book i'm reading!
so yay! i made my quota, sorta.
so now i have read 29 books! [almost]
hehe!


xoxo,
bekah

some prom pics!

the lovely people i went to dinner with! and check out me and rosie ride?! HEY HEY!
oh and yeah i look like a complete dork in the group shot but hey it was awesome!



xoxo,
bekah

most of you all should know...

that i use to be a cheerleader.
and one of the things i loved to do and still do sometimes is get on good old youtube and look up cheerleading routines or tumblers just because i still am into it but i just don't want to do it anymore.
so then here i am on youtube watching one of my fav tumbling videos and on the side where there are videos that are related to what i'm watching and one has a title
"Best Cheerleader on the planet?"
so of course i have to see it!
and let me just tell you...the answer to that question is YES! so you guys need to go check it out as well! its amazing! omg!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqYPrAvGDUU&NR=1

Kiara Nowlin! YOU ARE INSANE! and totally the best cheerleader on the planet!




xoxo,
bekah

i'm surprised.

i haven't passed out already...
three hours of sleep last night...
i'm like a dead person i'm so tired...
my eyes keep closing even writing this...
good thing i can type with my eyes shut.
hehe XDD
ugh.
i need sleep. i need sleep. i NEED sleep.
you know what.
i'm getting off of here now. and gonna stop blogging and go get that sleep!
lol.
GOODNIGHT!



xoxo,
bekah


ps. prom was awesome! i had fun! everything was great!

technology...

is one of the best things!
i love it!
really...really...really love it!
=]]

this is just a random blog befor i go to bed...
PROM tomorrow!
excitement...
major!
i'll have pics for you guys in a few days!
byes!



xoxo,
bekah

I'm really excited.

NO.
i'm beyond excited.
NO.
i'm screaming my head off with excitment and i just can't contain this sort of excitment anymore or i will explode into a million pieces.
yeah, that sounds about right.
hehe =]]

wish i could say why.
sadly i can't cause its not something i want or need doctumented right about now...
anyways!
i'm out to watch HEROES!



xoxo,
bekah

there comes a time...

when i WISH so badly that i could just say
NO
NO
NO
NO
NO

but sadly that time has not come
and i have to just suck it up and say
YES.

ugh. alright. fine. sure. whatever. okay. blah.
i need to learn how to say no.
but i fail, miserably.
so yeah. that's all i have to say.
short little rant for you guys to read and wonder what on earth am i talking about.
hmm.
wouldn't you like to know?
hehe. i'm not telling.
XDD



xoxo,
bekah

eyebrows.

done.
thank goodness!
but now i have to do MORE spring cleaning with my mom...
don't get me wrong i love to hang out with my mom
but spring cleaning
not so much fun...
i think its safe to say she has developed an addiction.
nonetheless
i still love her =]]




xoxo,
bekah

my mom gave me a C-

on my driving.
okay fine but in my defences it was NIGHT TIME.
done complaining.

you know i really didn't even want to drive tonight.
but i figured i should probably get as much practice in as possible.
so yeah.
okay i'm done with that topic.


i want May 9 to be here already!

ugh i have to get my eye brows done tomorrow.

my brother has a shinner. poor guy.

prom is totally like pretty much in a week!

i have the hiccups right now.

and i'm about done with my book so i'm leaving to go finish it...



xoxo,
bekah



ps. yes those were just random thoughts that came to mind as i tried to think of something to say. guess i thought of 6 things. GO ME!

OH! I FORGOT...

i will find who is the winner of the contest on May 9, 2009!
if you guys wanna just look at Ally Carter's website instead of waiting for me to post something about it then you can check it out at
http://www.allycarter.com/blog.html

not to mention Ally is an amazing author and I adore her work!
so yeah...
that's all guys!




xoxo,
bekah

I guess I am the type of girl...

who will write an essay in hopes to win a book!
but not just any book people...
its GG3 signed!
i'm super excited now! i really want that book!
hopefully Ally picks me!
and for your reading pleasure i present my essay for you guys!
tell me what you think of it please!




What It Means To Be A Real Gallagher Girl

Because I have no time to interview Cameron Morgan on this topic, or have a chance to speak to the headmistress of Gallagher Girl Academy, I will have to do my best in informing you of what it truly means to be a Gallagher Girl. I have been studying the subject for months and a few traits in which a Gallagher Girl should and must have come to mind. First she must be a quick thinker, one who can come up with a plan to escape a high class ball when her strapless bra some how manages to fall off. Second she must be able to be calm in such a situation as her bra falling off that no one really does notice she is calculating how to escape such a high class ball. And finally a Gallagher Girl must always have a plan B if she was put in such a situation as mentioned before but then runs into a subject who will not let her complete the mission she was on. These are all traits I believe a Gallagher Girl should have and therefore would show what it truly means to be a Gallagher Girl. To be a Gallagher Girl is to be fast, yet sly, and always ready with a back up plan.






xoxo,
bekah

am i changing?

i feel as if i'm changing.
like...
i'm acting different.
i'm doing different things.
i'm friends with people i didn't think i would befriend.
i'm just different.
but i love it!

i love my life down here in ala-BAM-a!
its just so different that it was excatly what i needed!
so what if i have changed...
at least i'm happy right?


yup.
i'm def happy =]]



xoxo,
bekah

you know what...

I LOVE DRIVING!
i'm actually pretty good at it now and i completely and utterly love it! like you have no idea! it's awesome! and fun! and just all around great!
i'm so excited for august now!
and i'm just excited!
hehe.

i love driving...
i'm on a driving high i guess =]]



xoxo,
bekah

blah.blah.blah

my head hurts right now...
but my school work is the problem...
i dont like having to think about africa and stupid science what not...
neither subject is going to benefit me with what i wanna do with my life...
so yeah. i dont wannna!
and therefore i'm posting a blog to waste time and push school out of my mind for a total of ten minutes because that is probably how long i have till i have to start doing school work again before my mom catches on that i'm not doing school work and instead writing a blog...
hehe =]]



ugh. fine i'll go back and do the stupid school work...
africa is just SO entertaining...NOT




xoxo,
bekah

i'm getting back into blogging again =]]

its feeling more natural again!
AWESOME!
sadly i have nothing to say today...
so this is going to be short.
guess its a hey how are you guys doing?
look i'm actually blogging...
blog.

yeah that's it!
i haven't given any bekah advice lately...
hmm...



BEKAH ADVICE:
YOU MUST NO MATTER WHAT READ THE TWILIGHT SERIES.
hehe.


that's funny advice.
but i really do love TWILIGHT!
its awesome!
still upset about kristin getting the part as bella though...
but i have come to realize that the reason no one is happy with kristin
playing bella
is probably because most girls pictured themself as bella
and therefore kristin doesn't look right
because she doesn't look like US!
i knew it...lol.
well okay that's how i feel...
opinions anyone?

peace out.




xoxo,
bekah

ON A HAPPIER NOTE.

teen CBS was awesome tonight and i'm so happy that God gave me the courage to go up and talk.
THANK YOU JESUS =]]



xoxo,
bekah

thoughts for what just happened.

i'm breathing again
but my heart cries out in pain
how can you
be so on my mind
its not like you were everything to me
yet seeing you again changed everything
its like i had finally built a wall between us
but tonight
everything went crashing down again
i have to start the rebuilding process
all over again...



sorry this is way emo of me.
but i'm not too happy at the moment...



xoxo,
bekah

countdowns.

To realese dates for books/movies i am dying to see.

1st. A Passion Denied- comes out sometime in May. why won't anyone tell me when excatly it will be coming out?! [[okay just went and did a little research. yeah umm one website that being Amazon told me that the book comes out May 1st. where as another website that being Barnes&Noble told me April 2009. this crazy.]]

okay moving on from this crazyness.


2nd. Don't Judge A Girl By Her Cover- June 9, 2009!
so way excited.

3rd. Tempted- October 2009!
don't know the exact day at the moment.

4th. New Moon(movie)- November 21, 2009!
can't wait even though i know i'll cry my eyes out...seriously. lol.

And it would be really nice if some how we could all find out when Midnight Sun was coming out...i wanna know so bad!



xoxo,
bekah

there is something about blogging.

that just makes me feel better =]]
so. remember all this happy go hopeful crap i had?
yeah well it is officially dead.
so you guys won't ever know what it was.
because that means i have to actually say it.
and bekah right now just doesn't want to have to say it.
at all.
so i'm officially done with that surprise news you guys might get to find out and turns out no one will know.
muhahaha!
okay that was weird.
alright how about this?
if you must must must know.
then email me!
faycheerleader@hotmail.com




xoxo,
bekah

confusion to the maxo.

seriously guys.
i'm so confused with life right now!
UGH! BLAH! GRR!
it's just that.
umm. well.
okay i'm going to attempt to tell you guys without actually telling you guys.
due to the fact that this is NOT something i want posted on the internet nor documented in any way.
so i'm told that something COULD happen.
and that the likely hood of it happening is GOOD!
yet.
that was told to me like a month ago.
and it has YET to happen.
so advice time for me.
WHAT DO I DO?
have hope still or do i give up and do something else?!
is this confusing? i'm sure it is.
but i can't really tell you guys.
well at least not now.
maybe.
but not now. as in right at this very moment.
lol. yes we all do know that i'm crazy.
and no i will not join your support group =PP

alright i'm out!



xoxo,
bekah

100 Books For 2009. [update]

okay guys! i know i haven't posted in awhile.
sorry about that.
been busy.
I GOT TO GO SEE SARAH! so that was exciting!
oh and i've been reading alot again!
i might be able to get 100 books read this year...
hmmm. *hopeful thinking*
well. lets see here. i'll give you guys an update i guess.
i'm currently sitting at
20 books.
and its April 2...
so lets see here.
i need to read 80 books.
in the next.
9 months.
so that's what?
about 9 books each month.
i can do that!
well i hope i can.
oh goodness i'm really scared now....
haha! jk.
i can do it!

well off to go finish up some school work and then get to reading...
maybe i can knock out a book seeing that its raining and i'm not doing anything else for the rest of the day...
why not just sit around and read?
sounds good to me!




xoxo,
bekah

by the way.

i'm giving up on those stupid weird word what not.
no more weird word.
i have decided. that i will NEVER be able to spell.
and therefore if a word comes up.
that is not spelled correctly.
feel free to leave a comment about it.
but really.
why leave a comment?
also i'm giving up on grammar.
really. when you think about it.
this blog is just all my stupid random witty thoughts that come to mind and what i'm doing during the day.
which i decide to share with you.
and in my head i dont think things like.
so today i went to the mall [period] and saw a guy [period]
yeah no period thinking in my head.
it just doesn't happen.
so yeah. that's all i have to say about that.
but yeah. umm. i'm going to bed.



xoxo,
bekah

i'm not doing good.

with keeping up with a blog any more.
ugh.
wow. i've also been saying that alot.
one of these days i'll actually act on my complaining and lack of being a horrible blogger and you shall have bekah back! lol.
okay then.
weird thought.
i just drank some water.
and it was yuking.
so now i think i shall puke.
yeah. ugh. not fun!
lol.


anyways. i came up with something.
and wrote it on myspace.
its a BEKAH ADVICE!


what do you do when you dont know what to do?
simple.
jump up and down.
spin around in a circle.
act a little crazy.
take chances.
risk it all.
and regret nothing.
because life is too short.
to just wait around.



not too bad eh? lol.
oh and i have a total fav song!
Only Hope by Mandy Moore!
so hope to be able to actually sing that song one day.
and have a crowd.
so far me and my shower head are making a deal with my curtain about going on tour in my room.
dont know how its going to go down though.


hehe =]]
i so funny.
okay that's conceited.
hmm.
work on that.



oh so how about i just had a random spurt of how OCD i really am.
i have been getting EVIL mail from colleges.
like crazy too! and it was really driving me insane.
and one day my dad had said bek you better be organizing this stuff.
only he didn't really mean it and was just saying it out of announces to how much mail i was getting!
so then. tonight. i decided at like 10:45ish. to organize it all!
yeah. dont know why.
but from there i organized my entire desk.
well mostly. and some other places too.
i have no idea what came over me.
but it is now 11:25ish.
and i'm so tired!
and going to bed.
so NIGHTY NIGHT!




xoxo,
bekah

This is me.

Officially saying that I.
Rebekah-Elizabeth Noelani Lane.
is a horrible blogger.
hmm. i'm going to need to work on this one.
okay okay okay.
so here i am!
what news do i have for you?
hmm.
well. there is some good news.
but i can't state it online due to the fact that this is in fact the internet and anyone could see this and so if some one i dont want to see this sees this then bekah will not have good news anymore.
but just know that i am happy.
well VERY happy actually. =]]
when and mainly IF this actually happens to me.
you, my blog page, will be the first to know! lol.
i sound crazy don't i?
well i am. so its nothing new is it?
haha.
okay then lets see. that's really it.
haha. my only news and i can't even tell you guys!
oh i have a book recommendation for you guys.
well series recommendation.
"The House Of Night Series" written by P.C. Cast and Kristin Cast
pretty good series if you liked the Twilight series.
basically its like Twilight meets Harry Potter.
seriously.
but still good although you should not read these books if you are under the age of well. hmm. umm. probably 14 or 13 and below. shouldn't read the books. but that's beside the point.
ANYWAYS.
lets see here. some bekah advice. oh i got some.
here some advice on relationship!



Bekah Advice Time: Girls, if you make the first move do beware that the guy might take you for being desperate. BUT, if he makes a move back then its all good. Although if time goes by and no move by either of you have been made, DO NOT MAKE THE FIRST MOVE AGAIN! Trust me on this. Just wait it out. See what happens. And who knows, he just might make it!

well i have school work to do and shows to watch.
i'm out yall!



xoxo,
bekah

some thoughts came to mind.

Let's count down the days, till the world looks up into God's face, and realizes the sins they have committed, and turn towards grace. Let's count down the days, till our wounds are healed, and the pain is no more, because that will be the day, we will start to sing praise. Let's count down the days, till all we hope and dream of, is before us, and once more we will say, "Let's count down the days, till our Savior returns, picks us up, dust us off, and brings us to the throne in which our Father sits." So come now with me, and count down the days, when we can look around, and see that what we have been waiting for, was worth it, but I imagine it will be so much more, so much better.

working. ugh.

hello, and welcome to Boldly Going! How can I be of service to you today?






i dont mind working.
but its not what i would like to be doing right now.
at least megan will be here soon for math.
but i dont want to do math either.
ugh.
i'm just not winning today.
lol.



bekah advice for the week:
when in doubt, jump up and down, because life is a coloring book so color outside the lines =]]



toodles!



xoxo,
bekah

I KNOW I KNOW.

i didn't post at all last week.
well.
i'm sorry. i'm just a loser i guess.
SORRY!
i'm really getting out of habbit.
i need to get back into the flow of things.
i dont know what it is.
but life just feels so weird.
like there isn't a flow to it anymore.
hmm. i'm gonna work on that.
get back into a flow.
so i'll post each day.
sorry guys =//



xoxo,
bekah

you all have a right to hate me.

but i just didn't really have much to say this weekend.
oh wait. there are some things.
and really these were both from friday.
and i didn't post anything friday because i had barely any time on the computer friday.
seriously guys.
like okay here was my day friday.
wake up.
get ready.
leave to go to co-op.
[[oh and speaking of co-op, our drama went surprisingly well! everyone did an awesome job and it was great!]]
then go home.
i was home for less than two hours.
in those two hours i was trying to help my mom with whatever she needed help with.
the i went to the coffee shop at three.
because i had math.
then from math.
i...
went to dinner with megan.
we picked up marlee.
went to see confessions of a shopaholic.
[[good movie!]]
killed an hour in walmart guy hunting.
hehe =]]
then i got home at 10.
so yeah.
by the time i got home i was way too tired to do anything.
except get on facebook for about an hour to play poker...
i know i could have posted then.
but i'm addicted to poker.
so i have a problem.
and yeah.
there you go.
then my excuse for saturday and sunday.
um. i just didn't do anything those days.
and couldn't think of anything witty or funny.
and therefore didn't post anything.

now then.



I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!
I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!I'M SORRY!




forgive me?



well i have to go and get ready now. i'll ttyl!



xoxo,
bekah

grr. um. ugh. blah. pff. erm. psh. fine.

okay today.
is going.
to.
be.
WEIRD.
and its a long story behind why.
but its just.
well.
ugh.


fine. i'll say it.
i just dont want to see someone today.
but i'm going to have to.
and so i'm not looking forward to it....
but i do get to see AMELIA BADELIA!
yay!
gots to go shower.




xoxo,
bekah

bekah advice.

here is where i give you a little piece of advice.
its a new feature on this lovely site.
and there should be about one a day =]]
so for today.
my advice to the world is.



Don't let the weather keep you down because you can still dance in the rain =]]




xoxo,
bekah

so today.

was pretty awesome!
i got to see megan and hang out!
she's completely awesome.
and we have fun at parks.


"MY CEMENT!"


hehe. long story.
anyways. today was just a good day all around.
and i really needed it too because yesterday was NOT a good day.
oh goodness.
i'm not even going into it.
but it was just BAD!
so anyways.
just thought i would leave you guys with a little update on my life.
wow. i'm getting bad at this.

note to self: come up with more witty things to say.




xoxo,
bekah

there is a reason..

behind me not posting anything.
i just haven't figured it out yet.
sorry guys =[[
i dont know what came over me!
this weekend has just been a super weird one.
and i've been off my routine.
but now i'm back on.
and i should be fine.
and posting every day again =]]
sorry again!



xoxo,
bekah

why didn't i post yesterady?

oh right.
becaue it was hectic yesterday!
and today is gonna be a pretty crazy day too.
but not till like 2.
so i guess not too much of a crazy day.
my mom and brother left this morning though.
went to NC.
ugh. I WANTED TO GO!
but w/e i'll just go stay with the Blakley's.
lol.
well i have to get some things ready so i'll speak with you all later =]]




xoxo,
bekah

so driving.

is harder than it looks.
i hate you all for making it look so easy.
lol.
but i am getting the hang of it.
well.
sort of.
i need ALOT more practice.
and i should probably learn to go faster than 15 miles an hour.
hehe =]]



xoxo,
bekah

I....

GOT MY PERMIT!
THAT'S ALL FOR TODAY.
I'M TIRED AND GOING TO BED SOON!
NIGHT!



xoxo,
bekah

memories =]]

so today. i decided to take a trip down memory lane.
i have a little memory box of random what not that i just can't seem to part with and i ran into some old notes from the lovely friends of mine.
they were quite hilarious and i find myself realizing something.


i really have become very mellow.


like i was a dramatic little cookie back in the day.
[[[which was actually a wednesday. haha!]]]
anyways. so i realized.
that i really have become more mellow about things.
like i've matured i guess.
lol.
i'm not making any sense am i?
well thats okay.


anyways. i also came across a list of all my old cheers.
and i do actually miss cheerleading.
and also i still remember every single cheer.
haha.
well not completely bust mostly.
funny stuff.
all this to say it was a very relaxing weekend and fun trip down memory lane.





[[[wow i sound really weird. i promise never to go back down memory lane if it means i speak like this. haha =]]]]



xoxo,
bekah

OMG.

i didn't post yesterday?!?
are you kidding me?!
how could i have forgotten?!
wow. thats horrible.
okay so here's whats going down.
bekah, is officially.
angry at the world.
well she was.
yesterday.
because she now has to wait till MONDAY!
to get her permit.
are you freakin kidding me?!
ugh.ugh.ugh.
i hate my life.
but i guess life is pretty chill other than that minor detail.
anyways. i have to go.
do something productive.



xoxo,
bekah

100 Books For 2009.

is my goal.
now the question is.
can i make it?!?!
i hope so.

lets see here.
at the end of January.
i had a total of.
4 books.
yeah. not good.
BUT! not to worry.
11 months left! lol.

i have to go to math now. ugh =[[



xoxo,
bekah

i decided.

that i don't want to post what i was going to say online.
because then it would be written down somewhere.
for all the world to see.
and also i'm pretty sure charli is the only one who reads this.
so CHARLI! call me.
and i'll tell you =]]
anyways guys. i'm going to bed becaues MEGAN is making me wake up in the moring.
grr.
hehe.



xoxo,
bekah

hate.hate.hate

my blankets on my bed.
they never stay on me.
and then i'm always freezing!
grr.

okay i need to finish my math.
ugh MEGAN! stop giving me work to do.
lol. i have more to say.
but i can't talk right now.
so yeah.
i'll post something later.
and UPDATE you guys!



xoxo,
bekah

blah. ugh. grr. umm.

i dont really know what to say.
its so confusing.
and so weird.
that i'm about to say.
UGH! NEVERMIND!
and yeah. so there's my statement on life.
haha. i'm so.
ugh.
there isn't even a word for it!
haha.


KATE AND THE PRINCE UPDATE: chapter nine is posted. chapter ten is in the making.
hehe =]]


well thats all loves.


xoxo,
bekah

update: Kate and the Prince

don't worry.
its still being worked on.
it just well.
hasn't been worked on lately.
because.
i'm a loser writer and can't seem to write anything.
well really.
i dont know which way to go with the story.
i want it to be a love/action/suspence/fansty story.
is that too much to ask?
ugh.

well. tonight.
when i get home.
i PROMISE! and i mean it this time.
i will get my little butt on this computer.
and at the least finishing chapter nine.
ugh. i've come so far i dont want it to end!
lol.
anyways.
i have to go and finish my math before 3 comes around.
which is in an hour and 45 minutes!!!
omg!
okay. leaving. toodles!



xoxo,
bekah

edit: "it should have been posted yesterday"

now. this is pretty sad.
because its completely like point blank a type-o.
with it being all caps and what not.
HOW DID I MANAGE NOT TO SEE IT?!?


weird word #2: WAMR- well it should have been WARM
WAMR isn't a word.
complete type-o.
everyone gets them =]]


oh and the other one.
well i don't actually know how to spell the guys name.
but i'm pretty sure i got it wrong.


weir word #3: flecter- maybe fletcher?
ugh. its a weird name and i can't think of how to spell it.
grrr.



xoxo,
bekah

i was hoping.

to actually have something to say today.
but i dont.
because the evil steelers.
had to win the superbowl again.
and just couldn't let the amazing Kurt Warner have one last win.
grr. steelers.
okay i'm over it now.
umm. lets see here.
oh some sleeping advice.

its totally awesome to listen to music as you try to fall asleep.
but you know not just any kind of music.
you need to listen to music that doesn't have words.
therefore you won't be up all night singing to your fav songs.
so like instrumental kind of music.
its the best!
really it is.
so yeah. there's your little piece of advice from me today.
and thats all i got for now folks.



xoxo,
bekah

no post yesterday because.

i just didn't have anything to say.
because i just did like nothing.
really.
nothing at all.
i just was around my house.
watching a little dane cook with the brother.
and then some chick flicks.
so yeah.
it was a very uneventful day.
and i just did NOTHING.
and now today is SUPERBOWL SUNDAY!
woot.woot.
still dont know who i'm cheering for.
but i'll decide soon enough.
well.
got a few hours before i must head out.
so i best get on that math thats due tomorrow.
ugh MEGAN! why do you have to give me so much math.
note to self: work on managing time and throwing a little math in each day.



xoxo,
bekah

ugh.

i do not like the fact i have to wait.
yet another week.
to get my permit.

grumble. grumble. grumble.

therefore i dont have anything to say today.
ugh. its way late.
i did have a fun time at the Blakley's tonight though.
love them =]]
night everyone.


xoxo,
bekah

it should have been posted yesterday!

but anyways.
sorry i didn't post something yesterday.
i totally was going to.
and then my head started hurting. [[long story that will be mentioned later]]
and i realized i had math due tomorrow.
ugh. math can die.

okay so yesterday.
WAS SO COLD!
omg. it was like i could not run in cold.
seriously.
i was getting to the point of freezing into one piece out there!
ugh.
its the freakin south! isn't it suppose to be WAMR?!?
grr.

but then my day got better because...
i got to hang out with amelia badelia&&emiline!
we went to go see Bride Wars.
IT WAS AMAZING!
i adore that movie now.
and flecter is evil and can go die!
haha.

i have realized that i'm killing alot of things lately.
i should probably stop.
but its way fun.
i mean i'm not literaly killing the things i say can go die.
its just.
ugh. okay fine.
i'm stopping. happy?

now then.
the last glorious moment of my day yesterday.
goes out to the lovely brother of mine.
[[no not josh, nathan]]
so nathan had picked me up from the movies and then what does he do?
i shall tell you.
we get home and he pushes me aside.
runs to the house.
goes in and then locks the door behind him.
little did he know i had my key.
so i wasn't really worried.
but then!
he goes and turns out the porch light.
and locks the dead bolt too.
so here's the thing about our retard town house.
the key goes to both locks.
but you have to flip the key for the dead bolt.
so while this is already difficult because i can't see.
once i finally got one lock unlocked and moved on to the other.
nathan would go back and lock it again.
[[somehow in this mess i ended up hitting my head on the door. not a good idea.]]
so now i have a major headache.
and my fingers are hurting from the stupid key fight lock with my brother.
and did i mention its COLD TOO!
ugh. not fun.
but nathan had a blasty blast with it.
grr.
finally my parents woke up and were like nathan let your sister in.
and he did.
oh the power of parents!
if only they had woken up earlier.
ANYWAYS!
it was an eventful day.


and now today.
I'M GOING TO GET MY PERMIT! AH! I'M SO EXCITED! AND NERVOUS! AND.AND.AND I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE I'M FEELING RIGHT NOW. GUESS THATS ALL =]]
well i'm off to get ready.
gots to look cute in my permit picture.



xoxo,
bekah

you know that its amazing when.

you go there for the first time and the pastor just so happens to be speaking about something that you have been struggling with lately.
dont you just love it when God does amazing things like that?
i know i do.
anyways.
in case you aren't catching on.
i went to Amelia's youth group tonight for the first time and i really liked it.
it was just so amazing. i mean i do go to the teen cbs on monday nights and its completely awesome but something just touched me at this youth group.
like i dont know.
i can't really explain it in words.
i just loved it and it was awesome =]]


xoxo,
bekah

edit: "i made a resolution"

it is so sad that i CAN NOT spell.
well okay i can spell.
but when i go on these rants of mine i just type in all these weird words that make no sense!
so from here on out i'm not going to.
sneak around and fix something and be like what are you talking about it was like that the whole time.
and instead.
make a new entry decidated to my weird words i type when ranting.
just to see how many times i tend to type in the wrong word.
so today.


weird word #1: wait-should have been weight.
complete and honest mistake.
hehe =]]


xoxo,
bekah

so i find myself with.

a rather busy day.
wanna hear?
of course you do.
well.
at 11:00 am i'm going with Mrs. Blakley and those lovely kids of her to Dothan.
and will then be back to Enterprise before 3 pm.
where i will meet with megan for math tutoring.
and then sometime tonight.
i'm not sure of the time yet.
i'll be going with Amelia Badelia to youth.
should be a fun and exciting day.
but sort of nervous.
about having to meet new people tonight.
maybe i can blend in with the crowd like Cameron from Gallagher Girls.
if you don't know what i'm talking about.
then you are missing out on some amazing books!

3rd Gallagher Girls book- June 9, 2009!
AH! talk about wicked excited.
well i have to go get presentable.
duces loves.


xoxo,
bekah

there isn't much to say today.

i could complain if i wanted to.
but i think you guys have heard enough of me complaining for the time being.
hehe =]]
anyways.
lets see.
well i'm babysitting tonight.

OH WAIT THERE IS SOMETHING.

well. i am trying to pick my Bible study back up and I can't tell you guys how good it feels to read God's word and see the promises He gives all of us in every sentence. its such an amazing feeling.
so yeah. yall should so dig into God's word.
i mean just pick a book. and start reading.
recommendations? well.
depends on where you are at in life.
I mean you can read in
John- which shows alot of Jesus's life and the mircales
Psalms- which I'm reading right now and I think its so encouraging to read the words of David's heart
Provebs- for those who are seeking wisdom =]]
Revelation- wanna know more about the end times? pretty cool stuff there.
Genesis- see some amazing things that God did, and only in SIX DAYS!

or hey just start flipping pages till God says, "Okay stop, this is where I want you to read."

whatever you're in for.
just start digging around in that Bible.
don't let it get dusty.



xoxo,
bekah

question.

is it loose?
lose?
or some other form of the word meaning to.
not have something any more.
ugh.
i hate vocabulary&&spelling.
going to go run now.
i promise.
or do i?

*evil thoughts*

alrightalright i'm moving.


xoxo,
bekah

i made a resolution.

to run more.
and right now.
i'm not liking it very much.
i dont wanna run!!!!!
at least.
not right now.
ugh.
but i would like to look good at prom.
hmm.
isn't there some sort of something i can do that will make me loose wait, still eat food, and not have to work out?!?!
oh and cost like next to nothing.
for teenagers.
yeah. i didn't think so.
well finefinefine i'll go run.
but i won't be happy about it.
grrr.


xoxo,
bekah

so sorry.

but i didn't end up writing today.
i was upset about something.
and so i didn't get around to doing any writing.
sorry guys.
i'll try and write some later on this week.


xoxo,
bekah

there is something not so fun.

about being free again.
let me tell you.
now my friends are grounded.
ugh.
so yeah.
bekah is now. bored.
at home.
wishing to do something else.
like umm.
hang out with those friends she hasn't been able to hang out with because she has been too busy trying to catch up on school work.
and then my other plans for today were canceled.
ugh.
so i think instead.
i'll go write something.
a new chapter perhaps.
or at least finish chapter nine.
did i ever finish it?
i dont think so.
hehe.
i'll go get that done.
maybe write a few more.
so that's what i'm doing today.


xoxo,
bekah

its too early.

to get up.
and get ready.
to go to.
the coffee shop.
and do math.
ugh.ugh.ugh

math why have you betrayed me!?!?
at least i can get some yummy coffee though!
yay!
hehe =]]


xoxo,
bekah

two weeks. way too long.

AND I'M SO COMPLETELY BACK.

did you miss me?
well of course you did.
anyways.
bekah is officially happy to say that she has her precious laptop back.
and can now access the internet.
she is also COMPLETELY caught up on her school work.
[[[this is the part where you clap your hands and say yay]]]
just dropping a hint.
anyways.
lets see.
want some updates? of course you do.
well.
you know what.
there really isn't much.
wow.
i live a pretty lame life.
that's what i get for being a lane.
haha.
no.no.no
i love life as a lane.
just not at the moment.
nothing against the awesome last name and how many people actually have to ask me how to spell it.
L-A-N-E!
anyways.
life just hasn't been working for me.
its like this.
[[[i'm now going to attempt something. which i saw a friend do. and it was quite hilarious. though i do not have whatever meds she was on to fully make this as funny as hers was. it should be interesting.]]]

so EB use to be TA but has now turned into EB and DO[that be me] is not very happy. because when EB us to be TA DO was completely falling for him. but sense EB turned from TA to EB DO is not very happy and has decided that EB who use to be TA is not worth DO's time. with the help of AC and AC DO is slowly starting to move on.
[[[yeah if you get that. well. good job.]]]
EB- emo boy
TA- totally amazing
DO- dumb one
AC- amazing chick
AC- awesome chick


oh and also NB and UTBCB are totally DO's awesome new best guy friends and they have been total helps to with DO's process of getting over EB who use to be TA.
hehe.
NB- ninja boy
UTBCB- umm. hehe. use to be cheating boy
don't you just love me?
yeah well i stole that bit from the lovely friend.

CHARLI VANDEUSEN.
amazing chick.
check.check.check. her out.
www.creatingcary.blogspot.com


anyways. this has become a rather long entry.
and all to say that.
I'M BACK!


xoxo,
bekah

grounded.

so.
i'm not necessarily grounded grounded.
but basically.
my laptop and me.
are parting our ways.
for awhile.
and i'm sad.
hopefully i'll get it back soon.
for those of you who read this and would like to know whats going on.
i'm way behind.
and its not good.
so i'm losing my laptop.
myspace.[none. at all.]
facebook.[i have to ask to get on.]
and i guess that's all.
and its until further notice.
i'll try to post. but it depends what my parents say.
so yeah.
there shall be no more day to day.
even though this is only the second day of me starting this.
so hopefully these three post for one day will be good enough for you guys.
if not. i'll try to post again as soon as possible.
anyways.
hope you guys are all doing okay.
pray i get my work done soon so i can get my lovely lappy back.
i'm already having withdrawls and its not even gone yet.
lol.
i'm so lame.


xoxo,
bekah

nun. part 2.

so maybe i won't be a nun.
how about a half nun?
you know like.
i enjoy hanging out with guys.
and being their friends.
but i shall not date them.
sounds good to me.

oh what now?
bekah so just made like a word.
and defined it!
[[insert party dance music here]]


xoxo,
bekah

pray.pray.pray

for my family please.
[[can't really go into details]]
but i just need some prayer right now.
that would be awesome of you guys.


well. bekah update.
life. is well.
going on.
ugh.
its that stupid thing again.
where i get my hopes up.
and then see them crash down.


i'm going to become a nun.
no but for real this time.
i'm sick of drama.
and crap.
and what not.
from those people of the other species.
so yeah.
bekah is now.
officially.
a nun.

what now?!

xoxo,
bekah

the story of me.

is basically what this is all about.
its my.witty.crazy.dramatic.physco.of a life

come along for the journey.
should be interesting.


xoxo,
bekah