sitting.

I love the school system of one ENTERPRISE HIGH SCHOOL.
Here I am. Sitting in my required physical education class.
Blogging.
And no mom i'm not losing points because he didn't want us to dress out today.
That's all for now.

xoxo,
bekah

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I think.

I have decided.

Maybe.

Well I don't know actually.

I mean I haven't come to a final conclusion that I have decided what I have decided.

Its a thought just kind of swimming around in my head.

Just keep swimming.

Maybe that song is effecting my final decision making.

All I really know is that I do know what I'm talking about.

I'm going to be late for church.

xoxo,

bekah

Why do i go to bed at 12:40 when i agreed to wake up at 3? On second thought, why did i agree to wake up at 3?!?
xoxo,
bekah

I saw tangled and totally fell in love!
then i agreed or offered to stay up until my brother gets home to let him in.
i have 40 more minutes.
ugh.
xoxo,
bekah

look at my tree :) i love it!

look what the camera on my phone can do! Awesome!

I fail at updating. For that i am truly sorry. But now that i have nothing to say i guess i will go. Promise something more exciting tomorrow. Maybe.
xoxo,
bekah

Four minutes and counting... Ahh!

Off to stand in line to see Harry Potter! Can you say excited? Because that would be me!
xoxo,
bekah

Want an update? Of course you do! So after much thought and a slight revelation..i just might come to the conclusion that sleeping is very important. Forget FB!

Wow...

I love my boyfriend...
he went and liked ALL of my profile pictures...
someone was bored :P
xoxo,
bekah

Why do i look like a mess?
Mom: Bekah? You gonna wake up?
Me: no!
Mom: it's seven?
Me: crap...
yeah...pony tail day for sure!
xoxo,
bekah

Ever been tired but cant fall asleep? It's the worse. Curses body for making me sleeping but giving me insomnia!
Yes, I googled to make sure that was correct.

OKay.

So I love my boyfriend.
I really do.
But for some odd reason today...he decided to call me...
sweet potato...
now he was nice enough to call me His Beautiful sweet potato...
but I don't even like sweet potatoes!
and I didn't realize it was call your girlfriend a vegetable day!

So I love you too, my lovely lettuce :)

xoxo,
bekah

p.s. He doesn't like lettuce XD

Correction.

There was a total count of FOUR! bekah hittings today in PE.
Two on my head.
One on my arm.
One on my foot.
I really hate PE.

xoxo,
bekah

Total counts of hitting bekah in PE today: three. Of those counts two of them were in the head. PE will be the death of me.
xoxo,
bekah

What do you do when you have absolutely nothing to do in the wonderful physical education class of the public school system? Text your mother :)
xoxo,
Bekah

Is it sad that the music I had put on sleep for 120 minutes turned off without my knowledge and I was still awake...?
xoxo,
bekah

so I did it...

I played around and now its all personal and whatnot...

I was going to try and change the font of the whole page using a font from

www.kevinandamanda.com

BUT! I def don't have the patience to sit and figure all that out right now...

maybe another day!

anyways...

It's late and I need to go to sleep or something...

I have to actually wake up and go to school in the morning...ugh...

xoxo,

bekah

Clean car again! Well at least on the outside.
xoxo,
bekah

THE POWER OF WINDEX!

I love you guys too but this can't stay on my car forever!

A big sexy on the back!
Can't say that until I'm married right Mrs.Jill :)

Love the arrow pointing to my driver side window :P

So...my car was tagged...pictures to follow...

Ugh.

I hate not knowing what to wear?!! Getting dressed is the worst part of my day. Okay now I sound pathetic.
xoxo,
bekah

Edit.Edit.Edit.

So people (my mother) are saying I should edit my blog. You know, make it all personal and stuff, since I'm only using the template I stared with in the begining. I'm just thinking that will throw everyone off. Or well it would throw me off. Okay okay okay, I'll do it. Today. Well later today. I gotta get ready for church now!
xoxo,
bekah

Testing this. Seeing if it works! xoxo bekah

I love listening to songs that make you cry because you realize how amazing our God is!
Lifehouse - Everything.
go. listen. now.
xoxo,
bekah

SEE! On the go blogging! :) it's so great!
xoxo,
bekah

Long Time...

Nope. It hasn't been a long time.
Has it?
Great, I forgot to look at what the last post I made was to see exactly...

-pause this blog entry for one moment please-

and back! so my last post was July 26, 2010.
that wasn't that long ago...maybe...
ALRIGHT! it was. my bad.
Well you know that blog I mentioned. yeah I didn't stick to that.
So what have I been doing lately?
ummm....

oh! School work. Yeah for those of you who DON'T know. I started my SENIOR YEAR!
of high school...
but whatever! I'm so excited for GRADUATION! like you have no IDEA!
anyways...so that's what I have been up to...just BTW!
and other than that I just didn't ever get around to posting anything new because I'm beyond lame!
BUT! I'm going to set this up so that I can blog on the go...
hopefully...
and then there should be more blogging...and postings...and stuff like that =]

ANYWAYS! i'm at work right now so i best be ummm working...

ttfn.

xoxo,
bekah

ATTENTION ATTENTION!

I CREATED A NEW BLOG!

i know i know, great bek, another blog we get to read that you wont really stick to posting to...

SUPER!

no for real this time, i'm gonna stick with it...

BECAUSE!

its not a new story that i'm working on...

it is...

instead...

A MOVIE (and other such review-able items) REVIEW BLOG!
no for real.

this is what i wanna do in my spare time...

i do it anyways, might as well write it down right? =P

I've always been one to give my opinion on just about anything! Because I happen to just enjoy it telling others what I think. Can you blame me?

Now you're asking, but Bekah, how can we get to this amazing new blog?!

www.bekahreviews.blogspot.com

check it out my peeps! and tell ya friends =D

xoxo,

bekah

Digging deep here...

So as of late, I had not had much of a "want" to write...

Or update my blog...

Or really do much of anything i guess?

Besides go to class, gym(on the rare day), and then work, hang out with friends, and sleep...

I've realized I need something to do again...

so what do i do to dig down deep and find my inspiration again?

I watch Julie&Julia =]]]

yes, it is my inspiration, although i have no desire to start cooking...but i do have a desire to write until my heart is content! and i wanna get back into reading...

why did i give these things up in the first place?

they were so much a part of me, for real, like my friends use to call me "Bek and a Book"

you dont get a name like that for just nothing right?

Right.

okay. so I'm jumping back in. For real.

I have such motivation to start writing, i just dont know what to write yet, but i know i have the motivation and i wanna get this done! for real! i want it. again.

(hehe)

well thats all. for now.

I love drinking from wine glasses =]]

xoxo,

bekah

As seen below...

I am starting a new blog series on my blog...
Don't know how long it will be...

but it is called

"being a high school student in a college class"


I'm taking two college classes this summer and will be writing down my lovely experiences =]]
I'm taking Calculus 1 (which could be the death of me) and US History! So far I am understanding the Calculus to an extent...BUT...I'm loving the US History class...I take a lot of notes in class but the professor is just great and super funny and makes it waaaaaay more interesting...
Especially if you are like me and have been taking US History for what seems like since ummm forever?! So yeah, that's what's happening...



xoxo,
bekah

being a high school student in a college class

LESSON 1.

If you decide to openly state that you are not yet even out of high school then you will have to make a name for yourself in the class. Best case scenario: You end up having a history major in your US History class who thinks he is all that and starts answering questions wrong, therefore you can come up behind him and "speak the truth."
(Lol! Yes i felt super smart after doing that to a guy.)


xoxo,
bekah

Two days. One Week. First day.

Two days.

I ONLY HAVE TWO MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL!
yeah, i'm kinda stocked =]]]


One week.

I will have exactly one week of summer vacation. Which, to be honest, won't be so bad...


First day.

June 1st is my first day of college! I'm so stocked!
Like for real...its so crazy, that I'm about to start college! I'm so close and I can NOT wait!

OH! ALSO!
June 4, 2010 will be the first official day that I'll be a senior!!!!!!!!
ME? A SENIOR?! I've only ever dreamed of this day and now its here!
I can't believe it! by the end of next week I'll be a senior!
And then the countdown will start till Graduation =P
Oh I'm so excited!


-This will be a good two weeks. Most def.-
Nothing could get me down now =]]


xoxo,
bekah

7:00 in the morning...on a SATURDAY!

its official.
I most likely will not be able to sleep in, I think I have lost all abilities to stay up to late hours of the night and to wake up at late hours of the morning/afternoon times...
how sad is that?!

Well I guess I shouldn't be too upset right?
I mean I'll be kinda busy all the time this summer and I'll have to start my mornings off early anyways due to my Calculus class starting at 7:45 AM. oh bother.
(I WANTED TO DO THIS. I WANTED TO DO THIS.)

hehe!
naw i'm totally okay with all this, I mean like I said I wanted to do this! and besides if I get a head start then I'll graduate earlier =]]]
the earlier I graduate the earlier I can start teaching
the earlier I start teaching the sooner I will be making money!
the sooner I start making money the sooner I can save up money to go back to college
the sooner I can go back to college the sooner I can work on getting my PHD in Shakespearean Poetry and Literature
and the sooner I get my PHD the sooner I can move to England and start teaching there as a college professor =]]]]]]]]]]]]

oh yes I have this all planned out =D
and i'm beyond excited!



xoxo,
bekah

time heals all wounds...

You know, whenever someone would say that to me

I would always brush it off and be like yeah right, you aren't the one going through this...

But I never fully took in the full meaning of this short phrase and the truth that lies within.

Time really is the best antibiotic for a broken heart. When you let yourself go through the period of missing, hurting, anger, searching, and finally coming to the FATHER for healing, that broken heart will be restored completely new. But then that heart still needs time, its new and fragile, until you can restore the friendship that was lost. God will tell you when your heart is strong enough to handle the pain again and give you an opening that will be the perfect moment to start a new the friendship you have missed.

I had lost one of my best friends I had ever had, and I thought that he would never want to talk to me again and had written me off. Turns out he was going through the same thing, and now God opened the door between us to start that deeply missed friendship once again. Its one of the best feelings to know that I have my best friend back again and everything just went back to the way they had been before. The hurt and pain are all a thing of the past and matter no more. But rather we just fell back into the usual steps we had been before everything happened.

I am beyond happy =]]]

xoxo,

bekah

ps. I'll go back to witty comments tomorrow =P

long time. no post. my B!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY =]]]

so what are mothers for? I shall tell you...Mothers are for...

1. Gossipping- whenever you hear some new juicy news about someone who do you mostly run to? Your mother of course!
2. Laughing- how many times have you sat down for a serious conversation with your mom and ended up laughing your head off about something completely different?
3. Dancing- with my mom, the best way to annoy her is to start dancing with her, especially if she is trying to do something =P
4. Singing- if you can really sing and i mean REALLY sing infront of your mother and she infront of you, and you still look at each other the same, that's saying something!
5. Shopping- "So save up your money, so you can spend more of it on me" -no lie my mother has said this to me! not the other way around-
6. Crying- moms dont have to ask, they just know, and they are there with their comforting shoulder to lean on and cry your eyes out
7. Watching movies- nothing better than movie nights with your mom, if you can actually pick a movie to watch though, and if you can get your mother to sit down through the whole movie...hehe
8. Getting ready- morning are just better when you can talk as you get ready, though you might get blammed later for making her late because you talk to much
9. Cooking- nothing like a mother daughter cooking/bonding time =D makes them feel better if they can pass some knowledge on to you
10. Being your best friend- my mom is my mother first, and best friend second, and I wouldn't have it any other way. She's the best friend any girl could ask for, she'll always be honest, tell you how it is, laugh with you, but can be serious when the time comes. She is my inspiration in life and the best mom in the world! I could never ask for someone better than the loving mother that I have =]]]

I LOVE YOU MOMMY =]]]]

xoxo,
bekah

ps.

did i mention to anyone that i gave up the 100 books thing?
yeah. that dream. died.
yesterday.
well actually it was AWHILE ago...but w/e
anywho! yeah I decided it wasn't a valid resolution because i made it the year before and didn't make it and so was going to try again but i was starting over which made it not even worth wanting to do...and also i just dont wanna read much anymore...odd? indeed. but w/e i'm writing so be happy!


xoxo,
bekah

customers...

"large cappuccino. 1 shot. decaf. but pour half of it out. lots of foam. and extra hot. oh and after you make that can i get a small cup. what for? so i can dump all the liquids out. see i only eat the foam with a spoon. and i want some cinnamon on top."


-oh how i love my job. next time, you are getting a cup of whip cream and not wasting my time. served with a smile of course =]]-


customers...can't deal with them without coffee...can't shoot em....legally =P


xoxo,
bekah

did you notice...

the picture currently to the left of the screen?

<-------------------------------------


i know i know! we're totally adorable =]]
we get it ALL the time!
and also...
-that picture is not posed! we are just naturally that cute! hehe-

ANYWHO!
i'm at work and should probably start cleaning up!
Lisa and Jess coming over to chill in the HOT TUB!
excitement? yes! for the hot tub? double yes!


xoxo,
bekah

mornings...

i find myself here often in the morning. putting off getting ready to tell the world....something....i hate shaving! valid reason. i hate shaving to get that feel of smooth legs, but OH! you have ravor burn and cuts all over your legs now...so much for smooth...the comercials! they lie! i knew it! AHHHHHHHHH!


-leave a message after the beep-
*BEEP*


handle me at my worse, and take me at my best.
that's the only way, to get with this mess.
yes i am rather insane, and yes i am okay with that =D



xoxo,
bekah

He has Risen =]]]

One of my new favorite songs by Third Day called Communion seems approriate today =]]

-Chorus-
"This is the body. This is the blood. Broken and poured out, for all of us. And in this communion. We share in His love. This is the body. This is the blood."

How thankful we should all be that our Savior went and died on the cross for our sins before we were even born and would commit them. And then we should rejoice for that same Savior rose from the dead three days later after defeating sin and death. Our lives are spared because He was sacrificed.

John 15:13-14
Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command.

Today is a day to sing praises and be thankful!



xoxo,
bekah




Third Day song ---> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y8iwFiUaQ1M

WHO KNEW?!

Okay, so if you have ever had a conversation with me about age you will know that for as long as I can remember people have always thought I was older than my actual age. When I was little it was usually a year or two older. Then when I was 13 people thought I was 16. At 15 I got that I was 17 or 18. And now at 16 (soon to be 17 in June) I would get 18 or 19. The occassional 20 would be thrown in and when anyone said 21, well that is just pushing their luck. But today, dear people, I got an age that is pushing the limit beyond what the limit is allowed to be pushed, an age that doesn't even make since to think that I could possibly be this age. That age is 23.
23?!?!?
How on earth do I look 23?!?!? For crying out loud I'm only 16 years old! ONLY 16! 23? That's seven years off! my goodness...

The world has yet again shown me, it is hopeless to ever think someone will look at me and think hey you look (insert current age here) and I can say yes, you are right! I am (insert current age here) Oh the misery and agony...

-melodramatic moment over-

I'm gonna go write!



xoxo,
bekah

tonight.

I am proud to say.
That I have come to the conclusion.
That sleep might be better than staying up all night to watch more gilmore girls.
Though I have decided this.
I am not sure I will stick with this.
AHHH! I must keep watching.
Oh the drama of being sucked into a tv show against your own will.
Curse my love for speed-talking and pointless conversations.
CURSE I SAY CURSE!


-bekah is currently not here at the moment. please leave a message after the beep.-

-BEEP!-


xoxo,
bekah

current train of thought.

Can't seem to decide if I really am awake or not.
I am able to function as an awake person does.
And will probably be able to make intelligent conversation if the desire is so needed.
But as to if I truly am fully awake, I can not decide.
Maybe the government is toying with my emotions now and turning me into a robot by slowly inserting weird chemicals into the foods we buy that is killing the part of our brain that triggers emotions and awake-ness. (for lack of a better word)
But that is just a theory and would be rather hard to prove.
OH! Maybe I traveled through time in which case I am currently seeing what I will be doing but not fully there. But why would I be blogging about how maybe I time traveled when you think the future me would remember that I time traveled at one point in time when I saw the future me. Oh that is beginning to get into a vicious circle.

...hmmmm....*deep in thought*

Maybe, just maybe, there is the slight possiblity that what is really wrong with me is that I just need some coffee.
I know its far-fetched. I know its crazy. Goodness me, I know I could possibly be speaking of aliens and sound more intelligent then I do now, which would be impressive on my part since one aliens are sure to not exsist (I think) and two I clearly know NOTHING about them. But I truly believe now, and I think that it might even be provable, that I really do just need coffee.




xoxo,
bekah

this is being posted because...

1. i have nothing better to do.
well okay i do, like get ready for work which is in about 1 hour and 17 minutes...
that is plenty of time to write this AND get myself looking beautiful =]]]

2. my boyfriend hasn't texted me back yet.
and i feel the need to share that =P
(mitch, if you ever read this one day thanks for giving me a second reason)
oh hey he replied!

3. Kelly Clarkson is playing right now.
-pause so i can jam out and reply to my honey XD-

4. I just got my nails done yesterday, BECAUSE, prom is friday!!!!
can you say excited? yeah that's pretty much me!
but anyways its really fun to type with these awesome things. it makes life fun when you enjoy the little things too =]

5. i'm down to 1 hour and 13 minutes now (12 minutes)

6. I can't come up with anymore reasons but I do enjoy making lists =]]]]]

7. I feel the need to call someone so I stop talking out loud to no one...
-I like the song that is playing on the radio-
score one for the radio for playing two songs bekah likes in a row!

8. I wonder how long I can make this list...

9. i have no plans for tonight. lame.

10. I'm gonna go get ready now (1 hour and 10 minutes)



byebyebyebyebyebyebyebye



xoxo,
bekah

ummm so that update...

that i had promised the other day...
here it is =]]]

so lets see...what's there to tell?
hmmm well like i said i have been dating mitch for a month now and i feel just like a little kid getting all excited about the one month! lol. especially since i haven't really had a relationship last this long in awhile...
but anyways! i'll try to get a picture or something for you guys soon =]]
if i dont post it on here just check my facebook
www.facebook.com/bekahlaughs

lets see what else can i tell you?
hmm well school is EASY! which is so nice! no hard classes though it does make the day seem crazy long! which is never fun but its all good...

ummm i dont know what else to say! haha
been dealing with some drama but its all in God's control so i'm not stressing too much...
cant believe that my junior year is coming to an end soon! well i can believe it
and i'm so ready to claim that senior title!
OMG can you believe that?!
bekah is finally gonna be a senior and the countdown will begin till graduation! lol =]]]

hmm well i guess that's really all cause i can't think of ANYTHING! haha
well i'm sleepy so i'll chat/speak/whatever with you guys later!
night!


xoxo,
bekah

i'm lacking...a lot...

on updating more often.
hmm this i shall work on...
OKAY!
so today marks one month since I got together with Mitch =]]]
kinda exciting! lol
i'm about to see him in about 17 minutes too...
and no i'm not ready at all!
AHHH!
okay this is going to be short because i have to go get ready...
hehe
i promise to get on later and give a few more updates!
i love you guys!


xoxo,
bekah

superbowl,update,and memories =]]]

so its superbowl sunday and i find myself at the Blakley's house (no brainer there its basically my second home) and i realized i haven't updated you guys in awhile...
well...
there is some big news to share =]]]]]


its kinda weird to say...but it makes me very very VERY happy....

bekah has a boyfriend XDD


hehe! anyways...so yeah his name is mitchell and he's a sweetheart =]]]
i'm rather crazy about him!


but anyways thinking that its superbowl sunday...
i'm brought back to several years ago...
it was about four years (possibly five) when my dear sweet cindy went home to Jesus
and whenever I think about her I tend to miss her terribly but I know that she is now in heaven with our Father, free of pain and sickness, and doing her favorite thing to do, praise the Lord with all her being and all her heart =]]
i had a pretty hard time getting over her passing but my mother helped me through it and now I can say with a smile on my face that there is a special lady who is saving a spot for me in heaven =]]] i miss her a lot but i know she's in a better place and it gives me something to look forward to...to being able to see her again one day =]]


(sorry this was so serious)


xoxo,
bekah

let's reflect...

so this month...
well its been a month that's for sure!
hehe!

first off, no i didn't meet my goal of reading so many books this month to keep me on track but w/e i'll work on that...lol
lets see just thinking about all that has happened this month makes my head go crazy...
and i guess really its just been more of the past week that things have changed SO MUCH!
and i'd have to say that where i'm at now in life is a pretty good place to end the month at...
i won't go into too many details
(i know that's a first for me)
but basically life and me are finally getting along and i'm more than content with everything God is doing in my life.
not to mention i can't wait for this next month!
mainly of course for one big reason...
BATTLE CRY 2010!
it's going to be so much fun! and i can NOT wait!
well anyways i have laundry to do and homework to get done so i'm out like a light now!


xoxo,
bekah

i'm posting this.

for the sake of posting it =]]
i can't really think of anything to actually write that will be witty and funny because this week has just been a crazy crazy crazy week! like you all have no idea...
i promise i'll come up with something better tomorrow or saturday
but know this...


i'm a duck. and i'm a happy. that makes me a happy duck =]]
how awesome is it to be a happy duck?!



xoxo,
bekah

working in a coffee shop.

here are the five things you NEED to know before starting work at a coffee shop

1. People want and need caffeine. Therefore you will be looked at in ways that might scare you and possibly ways that will keep you up at night in fear for you life. But there is nothing to fear, they are merely human beings that are probably suffering from a lack of sleep and will return to a normal state of mind after that first sip of coffee.

2. People really will wait as long as an hour for a cup of coffee. Therefore when the rush hits, don't panic, just take it one or two people at a time and concentrate on the task at hand. The customers who aren't too desperate for caffeine will leave if they don't want to wait and the ones that want the caffeine right away are more than likely to stop at a gas station or McDonald's.

3. Milk does not heat up to 190 degrees, naturally. In fact, once milk hits 180 degrees a funny thing starts happening, the milk actually starts jumping out of the pitcher. I find this rather humorous because milk clearly doesn't want to stay in a pot that is being heated that much, so why make it that way? Customers who ask for milk heated up to 190 degrees are most likely crazy and it will be okay if you only heat it to 180 degrees. If you try to go the full 190 degrees you better do it when no one is in the shop because you will face the problem of having milk everywhere!

4. Always, always, always bring something to do. Especially if you are a coffee shop that stays open all day or for a good portion of the day. Now you may be asking yourself, but won't I be serving people all day and not have time to read a few pages of a book or check up on my facebook account? This is a very good question to ask one's self but you are forgetting a very important matter. Usually people only drink coffee at certain times of the day: early morning-when they need a caffeine pick me up from staying up late and late at night- when they need caffeine from the rough day they just had. Therefore always have something to do.

5. Running a coffee shop is a mission only the brave at heart should take on. It should only be tested by those who desire a challenge. And can only be accomplished by those truly too awesome to handle a normal everyday job. So before taking a risk and starting a coffee shop, think about how awesome you are and build an extreme confidences that says "Yes, I serve coffee for a living, and yes I know I'm awesome."



xoxo,
bekah

here's your sample =]]]

Chapter One: First Ride
I rolled over in my bed, begging for the sun to go back down while pulling my covers over my head, so I would not have to wake up, but my dream was short lived.
*knock knock knock*
Who possibly needed me this early in the morning? No matter I had to answer the door eventually.
“Oh, good, you're finally awake,” commented Casandra, my lovely step-mother, as she looked me over, judging my sleep wear no doubt, “you need to get yourself dressed and presentable, Jilana. Your father is in request of your company.”
I nodded and turned to get ready, closing the door behind me but Casandra held her hand out to stop it, clearly not finished speaking to me.
“You have to meet him in front of the council, traditional clothing. Don't even think about meeting him in any of those clothes you wear at the stables. Understand?”
“I got it, Casandra, traditional.” I answered back sleepily to which she decided to clear her throat. Apparently I was still doing something wrong.
“Are we forgetting our manners?” she spoke before I got the chance to close the door once more. I wonder if I ever mentioned to her how much I hate mornings and being rudely awaken by a woman I can't stand? The temptation to slam the door in her face and laugh my head off at her flatten face was so great that it was almost impossible to withstand. But alas if I did I would have to face the wrath of my father. So instead I muttered a thank you and then shut the door before she had time to critique me again.
Traditional clothing? Goodness, what has happened now? And we haven't visited the council in ages. I headed towards my closet to find just the right gown I knew my father would love. It was a rather slimming dress, that flowed oh so slightly, v-neck, an off shade of white, with gold trimmings and beads. Not to mention, it use to belong to my mother who I happened to be the spitting image of. With her long deep chocolate brown hair that would not be tamed, and her crystal ice blue eyes, I was my mother's twin when she was my age.
I looked in the mirror and saw the similarities between my mother and myself, but there was one small difference that distinguished me from her in a great way. A scar looking mark that I had been born with. It was a jagged line stretching from the corner of my right eye, down the side of my cheek, around the back of my neck, came down ended at the base of my throat. The mark was so strange and the cause of it was still a mystery. To some it seemed like a curse that ruined my oh so perfect face, but to me it was the mark that showed I was different, special, and was meant for something.
I attempted to tame the untameable one last time before I knew I would have to leave to meet my father. It was rude to keep someone waiting. I left my room on the second floor and headed downstairs to where I knew my father would be waiting. The gate. The gate had a deep magic that had never been found anywhere else and was our ticket to the past, literally. And the past held the key to the future, again, literally. Great, I sound like a crazy but just let me explain.
Years ago, and I do mean years like a lot of them, the council had been put under a spell which sent them back to the past where they were trapped. Now as far as anyone knows, the council is perfectly fine and living among us in the present time, this is mainly because my father, Eric Drake, doesn't want to cause chaos where chaos is not needed. And to be frank, I agree with him. See my father is the leader of our coven so to speak and he was also originally the only one who saw the council in the first place because they hold a power over him. But that's too much to explain right now.
Anyways, the gate was the way to visit the council, and generally visits were often paid in times of war for advice or you were summoned there because something has come up. The last time we had been summoned was when I was one hundred and twenty-one. I'm now twenty days away from being two hundred years old, oh and that's still young. Did I mention to you that I was a vampire?
Yes another day as a vampire feels just like the last. I approached the door to the room where the gate was held still trying to figure out what was going on. We weren't in any time of war so clearly we were being summoned. But what for? I entered the gate room and found my father pacing back and forth with a worried look.
“Father?” I asked in a soft tone to not startled him from his thinking. He jumped anyways.
“Ah, Jilana, there you are,” her father took a few steps and waved her into the room, “Come in, come in, let us not make them wait too long,” he looked me over to make sure I was dressed properly, “you look lovely, dear.”
“Thank you,” I answered back but my curiosity was getting the better of me, “Father, what is this all about? We haven't met with the council in years.”
He took his time answering me, clearly decided if he should lie and say he didn't know or just tell me the truth. Apparently the subject was rather sensitive if he couldn't just flat out tell me. In fact there were only a few subjects that my father and I avoided talking about. You know, things such as marriage, a woman's place, boys in the coven who took an interest to me, what I was going to do with my life, his current wife. I held so much of my mother in me that talking about certain subjects would remind him so much of my mother and it would hurt him. But none of those subjects that we avoided would involve the council, right?
But then it hit me. Marriage. Of course, I should have known better than to agree to come, especially now. The council would be concerned with who is taking the rule after my father due to the fact I was the only heir of my father, which the council would not approve of. I was after all a woman and the rule should be in the hands of a man.
“Oh, Father, no please don't tell me that this is what I think it is.”He nodded his head and I knew he was happy I had figured it out without him having to tell me.“It's time, Jilana.”“In no way is it time, no, I still have twenty-two more years till the deadline. The law clearly states at two hundred twenty-one a woman vampire must be married. I'm only one hundred ninety-nine...”“Almost two hundred, so really twenty-one years,” my father corrected me, “and besides do you want to waste time and end up with an arranged marriage? Don't you want to find love?”“Father, its twenty-one years, I think I will be able to find love in that amount of time. But when I'm ready.”“Jilana, twenty-one years is not as long as you think. For our kind it will be here and gone in the blink of an eye.”“But...” I began to protest but I knew I was defeated. There was nothing more to do but face what the council had to say head on.
“Jilana,” my father spoke before we entered the gate, “please, the council has requested your presences. You know if I could I would not be making you come, but you know I can not do that. No matter how much I wish I could keep you with me.”
I shifted my gaze to the ground, racking my brain for an excuse but there was none. There was no way out of anything anymore. I was the daughter of my father's first wife and that meant I was above my other brothers and sisters who had been born from my father's second wife. The reign would have to come to me and that would mean I would have to marry. No questions asked.
“Alright,” I finally spoke.
“Shall we go then?” my father asked trying to give me as much time as possible before everything changed.
I just nodded twice and then we both turned towards the gate and stepped through.
The familiar rush I hadn't felt in ages came so swiftly and smoothly over my skin, brushing my hair back just enough to lift off of my back. I welcomed the enhancement to my senses that came with going back into the past where the deep magic was trapped. The bright light at the end of the tunnel that most would run from I ran towards until I was standing in front of the four most powerful vampires that had ever lived. It had seemed like forever had gone by sense the last time I had been in front of the council but they still looked the same. It was as if I expected them to age when I myself hadn't aged in a century. No matter, there they were before me, in their prime, but nearly two thousands years old.
There was Julian, Gabriel, Timothy, Cornelius, and Marcus, the head of the council. I took each of their appearances in, trying to determine if anything was different about them. There wasn't. There came a certain age when you stopped aging and the number just became a representation of how long you had been on the earth. The only thing that really gave away just how old they were was their clothing. But the power they held still amazed me, just as it always had.
A moment passed by, then my father and I bowed in respect and waited for the acknowledgement from Marcus that we could stand. It seemed the acknowledgement would never come but then a hand came down under my chin and lifted my face to gaze upon Marcus, who was now standing in front of me.
“You are so lovely, Jilana Drake, and I almost thought I had seen the ghost of your mother when you walked in,” his eyes were on my neck and his finger came to move along the line of my mark, “but with a mark such as this how could someone not recognize the daughter of Eric Drake?” Marcus turned his glance over to my father, removing his finger from touch the end of my mark, “arise Eric, your respect has been acknowledged.”
Marcus turned back to his chair that was lined along the back wall in between the four other chairs that were still occupied. As he turned to sit in his chair, as well, I couldn't help but take in the sight of him. He was a very attractive man, just as most vampires were, but it wasn't mere good looks that he held. He also carried a confidence that could not be matched and a sense of power and strength that both frightened but impressed me. Oh no, I have never though of him as someone for me to marry, due mainly to the fact that he was two thousand years old, but I simply admired his authority. Yet, I was also in great envy of him, because he had been chosen.
Being chosen is an honor that only few will ever receive, and the majority of those who receive it are male anyways. To be chosen meant that one of the three great species had singled you out as their master. Vampires had connections to these animals, but it was the animals choice who to make this great connection with.
A dragon, the top of the species, only chose the best of the best, and a dragon choosing was so rare that there were hardly any dragon riders. A stallion, the warrior species, was a common beast to chose a vampire, and any vampire who was chosen by a stallion was always put in a place of authority or became a great warrior. Lastly was a cat, the intellectual species, but no one desired to be chosen by a cat. Like I said, it was mostly men who were chosen, and most men wanted a place of power or to be a warrior, and to be honest most men found no use for the cat. Some went as far as being chosen by a cat was a disgrace because clearly you aren't man enough to handle a dragon or stallion. But what those men didn't realize is that with a cat you would always have a companion, someone who would forever be loyal to you.
Marcus had been chosen by a dragon, many years ago, and he was the last one who had ever been chosen by a dragon. My father had been chosen by the Great White Stage of the East, a stallion that no one ever thought would be tamed. These two men in my life I held so much respect for and made me wish every day that I had been born a male. If I had we wouldn't be here right now.
“Marcus, might I inquire what you summoned my daughter and I here for today?” my father asked calmly. Now that our respect had been shown we could enter into a normal conversation without worrying about offending the council.
“We summoned your daughter and yourself here today,” Timothy, sitting at the right hand of Marcus, answered, “because Cornelius has been searching for the meaning behind Jilana's mark.”
My mark? There was a meaning behind it? I thought it was just there, you know, like a birth mark.
“Yes,” Cornelius spoke up, he was sitting on the other side of Timothy, “I believe I have come to a conclusion...”
“She is to be chosen, Eric,” Marcus spoke out, interrupting Cornelius, “for nearly four thousand years ago there lived a woman with a similar looking mark wrapped around her arm. She was also the only known woman to have ever been chosen by anything other than a cat. She also became one of the most powerful rulers in our history.”
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I had never been heard of any one woman being chosen, not even by a cat, and I had also never heard of any woman ruler. I looked over to my father whose face was still so calm that I wanted to scream at him to get some form of reaction out of him.
But then I took in everything Marcus had just said. She is to be chosen.
“Wait, I am to be what?” I blurted out before I could stop myself, “I mean, did you say, I was to be chosen?”
Marcus nodded his head, “Yes, dear Jilana, it would appear that way since no other mark has ever been heard of appearing on our kinds skin such as yours and...”
“Marcus,” my father interrupted before he could tell me the name of the other woman.
“Shall I hold my tongue, Eric?”
I looked at my father, who now had a tense look on his face, what was he freaking out about now? Who was the other woman? I racked my brain for any information that would help me. Through all my years of schooling I had never remembered a woman being so important in history. In fact, there were no women who were important to our history because women weren't meant for anything but mating. What they were saying and what I had been taught didn't match up. If only I had had a mother figure in my life, if only my mother had disappeared after I had been born so that maybe I would have learned of this woman. I couldn't even remember the days when my mother had been in my life. She had just altogether left and I couldn't remember her. All I had known about her was the way she looked and that was merely from pictures.
My mind came back to the presences, well past really, and I took in what Marcus had said. Shall I hold my tongue? What were they keeping from me?
“Father?”
My father looked at me, and his face relaxed, his eyes became watery as if he was going to cry.
“I should have told you sooner, Jilana,” was all he said.
“Told me what?” I demanded from anyone in the room who would answer me.
Julian happened to be the only one who would.
“The reason you don't know your mother, child,” was all he said.
“She left us,” I answered back, “right?”
“No,” Julian continued, “your mother is not from your presences, rather she is from the past.”
From the past? What did he mean by that?
“Jilana,” my father walked over to me and placed his hand on my arm, “please, let me explain, but some other time. I have been meaning to tell you this. But there seemed to be no way of telling you. I knew not how to say it without being ashamed.”
“Ashamed of what? Having me?” I immediately took defense. This man I had looked up to so much for my entire life was beginning to not make any sense.
“Never, Jilana, never would I ever be ashamed of you. You are my daughter, the sunshine in my life. The one good thing that came out of my horrible mistake.”
“What mistake?” I questioned him.
“The mistake of rebellion. The misuse of the gate and its power. Changing the past which changed the future. And the reason for the war that put us, the council, back in the past,” Marcus spoke out again, with such authority that I was in shock.
What had my father done? Well it seemed, from what Marcus had said, that he went back to the past, met my mother, got her pregnant, I was born, and then everything that had happened changed, because I was born. The weight of everything I was being told fell on me like the weight of the world on my shoulders. How was it possible that my birth changed everything? How was it possible that because I was born the council was now stuck in the past? How was I ever going to live with myself again?
“So, then it's all my fault?” I said weakly, feeling my eyes water.
“No, Jilana,” my father tried to comfort me, “it was my mistake, and only I will bear the punishment for what I did. You did nothing wrong.”
I tried to let his words sooth my guilty thoughts but I couldn't get past the fact that my birth changed everything. The thoughts swam around my mind haunted my every being but I worked through the pain. I fought hard against the voices in my head to shut them away where I would be able to deal with them later. I was after all in front of the council and would need to put this past me to keep a good face.
“Marcus, don't you think we should get to the other subject at hands?” Gabriel, who sat on the left of Marcus, finally spoke after having been silent this whole time.
“Ah, yes Gabriel, we do have another matter to deal with. Eric,” Marcus addressed my father, who turned towards Marcus giving him his full attention and letting go of the hold he had on me, “Jilana is nearing two hundred, and it is under our impression that she has yet to find a mate. Is this correct?”
“Yes, it is correct,” my father answered back, calmly of course.
“Well, that would leave only twenty-one years left for her to find such mate for the law strictly states a woman must be married before she is two hundred twenty-one years of age. We find that an arranged marriage may be the only option for her.”
“What?!” I blurted out, for the second time that day, but for crying out loud there was a lot being thrown at me today.
Marcus turned his gaze at me, “Jilana, do you really believe you could get someone to fall in love with you in twenty-one years?”
“Yes, Marcus, I do. After all, it's twenty-one years we are talking about not twenty-one days.”
“Dear child, twenty-one years will go by almost as fast as twenty-one days could. Sometimes, we must take necessary actions to avoid breaking the law. Also, an arranged marriage could mean peace between another coven which would prevent any future wars. Don't you want to help your coven?”
“Well, of course I do, but how long will I have before an arranged marriage will be forced upon me?” I asked, frightened that I would not have any time at all.
“That surely depends.”
“On what exactly?”
“If you are chosen after all,” Marcus smiled.
Chosen? She is to be chosen. Were they really being serious?





xoxo,
bekah

samples anyone?

so a few updates.
and go.

1. i am writing like i said i was
2. i have a little bit of the first chapter to share =]]]
(i'll post it in another entry by itself)
3. because i'm writing, i'm not really reading a lot but i am reading
4. because i'm reading, do expect recommendations because i tend to share my opinion a lot
5. i have a new schedule at school that is seeming to be pretty easy which is great because that means i'll actually have time to read and write =]]
6. life has seen better days but there really isn't anything to complain about
7. my days have been filled with tons of humor and a day doesn't go by that i dont smile and laugh which is a nice feeling
8. i'm working right now and a rubber band just snapped in my mouth
9. and my mom won't bring me anymore so i'll be wearing braces till i'm 20
10. other than that i'm really not up to much but making lists are rather fun!



xoxo,
bekah

guess who is writing again?

ME!
yes, i know you are all excited to hear that =]]]
another goal for this year is to actually finish a story (just the first draft)
so i'm working on it now whenever i can!
here is a little bit of the beginning of chapter one!




Chapter One: First Ride
I rolled over in my bed, begging for the sun to go back down while pulling my covers over my head, so I would not have to wake up, but my dream was short lived.
*knock knock knock*
Who possibly needed me this early in the morning? No matter I had to answer the door eventually.
“Oh, good, you're finally awake,” commented Casandra, my lovely step-mother, as she looked me over, judging my sleep wear no doubt, “you need to get yourself dressed and presentable, Jilana. Your father is in request of your company.”
I nodded and turned to get ready, closing the door behind me but Casandra held her hand out to stop it, clearly not finished speaking to me.
“You have to meet him in front of the council, traditional clothing. Don't even think about meeting him in any of those clothes you wear at the stables. Understand?”
“I got it, Casandra, traditional.” I answered back sleepily to which she decided to clear her throat. Apparently I was still doing something wrong.
“Are we forgetting our manners?” she spoke before I got the chance to close the door once more. I wonder if I ever mentioned to her how much I hate mornings and being rudely awaken by a woman I can't stand? The temptation to slam the door in her face and laugh my head off at her flatten face was so great that it was almost impossible to withstand. But alas if I did I would have to face the wrath of my father. So instead I muttered a thank you and then shut the door before she had time to critique me again.
Traditional clothing?


Hope you like it and I'll keep you guys posted when new things are added =]]



xoxo,
bekah

two words i have come to hate.

power chain.
oh my lands its painful!

if you are wondering what i'm talking about
it has to do with my braces
and just something they added to them today...
that is how i say
PAINFUL!

anyways i'll be living off smoothies from now on =]]
yay! haha.


xoxo,
bekah

back to school for me.

so i'm back in school. and i have two more weeks left of the first semester and THEN i'll start the second semester. odd? i think YES! but its all good.
so teachers are trying to finish things up and not giving us too much work (kinda) and i guess i'm just happy to almost be done with these classes.
praying next semester's classes aren't so umm boring? lol.
anyways well i'll have exams next week so pray for me!
yeah sadly i wasn't able to skip my exams even though i have straight A's. i had to have perfect attendances as well.
LAME!
but anyways...so...i'm currently about to start working on some precal homework! yay! not.
yeah my math teacher decided lets fit in one more chapter before you have to take an exam. oh and we are being tested on the chapter. then we have a review day. two days later the exam.
another LAME!
okay i'm complaining alot.

positive thinking now.
well we started the Ladies Bible Study tonight and we're doing Loved By God by Liz Curtis Higgs and she is just HILARIOUS! i love listening to her because she is just so exciting and funny and the study is such a great one =]]]

well i'm putting off my precal homework to write this so i better start cracking! i'll talk to you guys soon!


(the count still stands at only one book read so far, and its already the 5th. i know i gotta get moving! i'm moving i'm moving. gosh...)



xoxo,
bekah

i got my hair cut.

it happened.

the scissors came out.

and the hair fell down.

little by little she cut away until she was content.

and little by little i watched it fall to the floor and held back the tears i knew would come.

i hate getting my hair cut.

but not as much as i hate having short hair.

OKAY! dramatic entrances over!

but anyways yes i did get a hair cut today and it is rather short now that its just so weird! i haven't had this short of hair since august 08. that's a LONG time ago....

oh its so weird...

though it is kinda curly right now so maybe after i straighten it then it will be longer....

OH PRAY IT WILL BE! haha

and that's all my news for you guys today =]]

xoxo,

bekah

just a quicky...

due to the fact that my URL was very long because my name is rather long
i changed it!
i know, you can actually do that?! no way.
oh way you can =]]]

so its now
www.bekahlaughs.blogspot.com


smaller, easier to spell, and rememberable.
well to some.

now this is NOTHING against my name, i mean hello people its my name here =]]
this is simply because well it just is.
i am though the proudest person when it comes to names.
especially my name.
because i do deem it amazing because it is.
i mean really see for yourself...

Rebekah-Elizabeth.
Noelani.
Lane.

is it not amazing?! i challenge you to find me a more amazing name.


(okay i sound like an ego-name-atic freak.)
totally just came up with that myself!
should go in the dictionary!
definition: some one who is proud of their name


well i have done a lot to today and i'm almost done.
then it will be off to bed.



WAIT!
its already the second.
but i'm still currently thinking its the first.
so really i have already done a lot today and will be doing even more later...
oh boy i better go get a very long nap then =]]



(this was not quick at all)



xoxo,
bekah

goodbye 2009 and hello 2010 =]]

well i do believe that a year went by and i did not complete my mission to read 100 books.
so i'm starting over now!
100 books for 2010.
and i already have finished one!
so 99 more to go!
oh goodness...i should probably set some sort of game plan for this huh?
hmmm....
100 books.12 months. 4 months=9 books and the last 8 months=8 books.
i think i can do that.
and so at the end of each month I will post wither i have read all 8(9) of the books i am suppose to read and if i don't those will just carry over =]]
I CAN DO THIS!
also i am hoping that i get around to posting more and more but do realize that sometimes there is really just NOTHING to say so yeah but i still love you guys =]]

so lets see other new years resolution.
well i am getting a gym membership here soon like in the next week, so i hope to start working out more and actually getting fit.
i'm going to pass 11th grade and become a senior this year!
i'm turning 17 =]]]
i'm going to try try try TRY to actually finish a story/book at least the first draft.
i hope.
and save up for college!
this should be an exciting year =]]]


well i'm off to watch more gilmore girls!



xoxo,
bekah