ugh.

i do not like the fact i have to wait.
yet another week.
to get my permit.

grumble. grumble. grumble.

therefore i dont have anything to say today.
ugh. its way late.
i did have a fun time at the Blakley's tonight though.
love them =]]
night everyone.


xoxo,
bekah

it should have been posted yesterday!

but anyways.
sorry i didn't post something yesterday.
i totally was going to.
and then my head started hurting. [[long story that will be mentioned later]]
and i realized i had math due tomorrow.
ugh. math can die.

okay so yesterday.
WAS SO COLD!
omg. it was like i could not run in cold.
seriously.
i was getting to the point of freezing into one piece out there!
ugh.
its the freakin south! isn't it suppose to be WAMR?!?
grr.

but then my day got better because...
i got to hang out with amelia badelia&&emiline!
we went to go see Bride Wars.
IT WAS AMAZING!
i adore that movie now.
and flecter is evil and can go die!
haha.

i have realized that i'm killing alot of things lately.
i should probably stop.
but its way fun.
i mean i'm not literaly killing the things i say can go die.
its just.
ugh. okay fine.
i'm stopping. happy?

now then.
the last glorious moment of my day yesterday.
goes out to the lovely brother of mine.
[[no not josh, nathan]]
so nathan had picked me up from the movies and then what does he do?
i shall tell you.
we get home and he pushes me aside.
runs to the house.
goes in and then locks the door behind him.
little did he know i had my key.
so i wasn't really worried.
but then!
he goes and turns out the porch light.
and locks the dead bolt too.
so here's the thing about our retard town house.
the key goes to both locks.
but you have to flip the key for the dead bolt.
so while this is already difficult because i can't see.
once i finally got one lock unlocked and moved on to the other.
nathan would go back and lock it again.
[[somehow in this mess i ended up hitting my head on the door. not a good idea.]]
so now i have a major headache.
and my fingers are hurting from the stupid key fight lock with my brother.
and did i mention its COLD TOO!
ugh. not fun.
but nathan had a blasty blast with it.
grr.
finally my parents woke up and were like nathan let your sister in.
and he did.
oh the power of parents!
if only they had woken up earlier.
ANYWAYS!
it was an eventful day.


and now today.
I'M GOING TO GET MY PERMIT! AH! I'M SO EXCITED! AND NERVOUS! AND.AND.AND I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE I'M FEELING RIGHT NOW. GUESS THATS ALL =]]
well i'm off to get ready.
gots to look cute in my permit picture.



xoxo,
bekah

you know that its amazing when.

you go there for the first time and the pastor just so happens to be speaking about something that you have been struggling with lately.
dont you just love it when God does amazing things like that?
i know i do.
anyways.
in case you aren't catching on.
i went to Amelia's youth group tonight for the first time and i really liked it.
it was just so amazing. i mean i do go to the teen cbs on monday nights and its completely awesome but something just touched me at this youth group.
like i dont know.
i can't really explain it in words.
i just loved it and it was awesome =]]


xoxo,
bekah

edit: "i made a resolution"

it is so sad that i CAN NOT spell.
well okay i can spell.
but when i go on these rants of mine i just type in all these weird words that make no sense!
so from here on out i'm not going to.
sneak around and fix something and be like what are you talking about it was like that the whole time.
and instead.
make a new entry decidated to my weird words i type when ranting.
just to see how many times i tend to type in the wrong word.
so today.


weird word #1: wait-should have been weight.
complete and honest mistake.
hehe =]]


xoxo,
bekah

so i find myself with.

a rather busy day.
wanna hear?
of course you do.
well.
at 11:00 am i'm going with Mrs. Blakley and those lovely kids of her to Dothan.
and will then be back to Enterprise before 3 pm.
where i will meet with megan for math tutoring.
and then sometime tonight.
i'm not sure of the time yet.
i'll be going with Amelia Badelia to youth.
should be a fun and exciting day.
but sort of nervous.
about having to meet new people tonight.
maybe i can blend in with the crowd like Cameron from Gallagher Girls.
if you don't know what i'm talking about.
then you are missing out on some amazing books!

3rd Gallagher Girls book- June 9, 2009!
AH! talk about wicked excited.
well i have to go get presentable.
duces loves.


xoxo,
bekah

there isn't much to say today.

i could complain if i wanted to.
but i think you guys have heard enough of me complaining for the time being.
hehe =]]
anyways.
lets see.
well i'm babysitting tonight.

OH WAIT THERE IS SOMETHING.

well. i am trying to pick my Bible study back up and I can't tell you guys how good it feels to read God's word and see the promises He gives all of us in every sentence. its such an amazing feeling.
so yeah. yall should so dig into God's word.
i mean just pick a book. and start reading.
recommendations? well.
depends on where you are at in life.
I mean you can read in
John- which shows alot of Jesus's life and the mircales
Psalms- which I'm reading right now and I think its so encouraging to read the words of David's heart
Provebs- for those who are seeking wisdom =]]
Revelation- wanna know more about the end times? pretty cool stuff there.
Genesis- see some amazing things that God did, and only in SIX DAYS!

or hey just start flipping pages till God says, "Okay stop, this is where I want you to read."

whatever you're in for.
just start digging around in that Bible.
don't let it get dusty.



xoxo,
bekah

question.

is it loose?
lose?
or some other form of the word meaning to.
not have something any more.
ugh.
i hate vocabulary&&spelling.
going to go run now.
i promise.
or do i?

*evil thoughts*

alrightalright i'm moving.


xoxo,
bekah

i made a resolution.

to run more.
and right now.
i'm not liking it very much.
i dont wanna run!!!!!
at least.
not right now.
ugh.
but i would like to look good at prom.
hmm.
isn't there some sort of something i can do that will make me loose wait, still eat food, and not have to work out?!?!
oh and cost like next to nothing.
for teenagers.
yeah. i didn't think so.
well finefinefine i'll go run.
but i won't be happy about it.
grrr.


xoxo,
bekah

so sorry.

but i didn't end up writing today.
i was upset about something.
and so i didn't get around to doing any writing.
sorry guys.
i'll try and write some later on this week.


xoxo,
bekah

there is something not so fun.

about being free again.
let me tell you.
now my friends are grounded.
ugh.
so yeah.
bekah is now. bored.
at home.
wishing to do something else.
like umm.
hang out with those friends she hasn't been able to hang out with because she has been too busy trying to catch up on school work.
and then my other plans for today were canceled.
ugh.
so i think instead.
i'll go write something.
a new chapter perhaps.
or at least finish chapter nine.
did i ever finish it?
i dont think so.
hehe.
i'll go get that done.
maybe write a few more.
so that's what i'm doing today.


xoxo,
bekah

its too early.

to get up.
and get ready.
to go to.
the coffee shop.
and do math.
ugh.ugh.ugh

math why have you betrayed me!?!?
at least i can get some yummy coffee though!
yay!
hehe =]]


xoxo,
bekah

two weeks. way too long.

AND I'M SO COMPLETELY BACK.

did you miss me?
well of course you did.
anyways.
bekah is officially happy to say that she has her precious laptop back.
and can now access the internet.
she is also COMPLETELY caught up on her school work.
[[[this is the part where you clap your hands and say yay]]]
just dropping a hint.
anyways.
lets see.
want some updates? of course you do.
well.
you know what.
there really isn't much.
wow.
i live a pretty lame life.
that's what i get for being a lane.
haha.
no.no.no
i love life as a lane.
just not at the moment.
nothing against the awesome last name and how many people actually have to ask me how to spell it.
L-A-N-E!
anyways.
life just hasn't been working for me.
its like this.
[[[i'm now going to attempt something. which i saw a friend do. and it was quite hilarious. though i do not have whatever meds she was on to fully make this as funny as hers was. it should be interesting.]]]

so EB use to be TA but has now turned into EB and DO[that be me] is not very happy. because when EB us to be TA DO was completely falling for him. but sense EB turned from TA to EB DO is not very happy and has decided that EB who use to be TA is not worth DO's time. with the help of AC and AC DO is slowly starting to move on.
[[[yeah if you get that. well. good job.]]]
EB- emo boy
TA- totally amazing
DO- dumb one
AC- amazing chick
AC- awesome chick


oh and also NB and UTBCB are totally DO's awesome new best guy friends and they have been total helps to with DO's process of getting over EB who use to be TA.
hehe.
NB- ninja boy
UTBCB- umm. hehe. use to be cheating boy
don't you just love me?
yeah well i stole that bit from the lovely friend.

CHARLI VANDEUSEN.
amazing chick.
check.check.check. her out.
www.creatingcary.blogspot.com


anyways. this has become a rather long entry.
and all to say that.
I'M BACK!


xoxo,
bekah

grounded.

so.
i'm not necessarily grounded grounded.
but basically.
my laptop and me.
are parting our ways.
for awhile.
and i'm sad.
hopefully i'll get it back soon.
for those of you who read this and would like to know whats going on.
i'm way behind.
and its not good.
so i'm losing my laptop.
myspace.[none. at all.]
facebook.[i have to ask to get on.]
and i guess that's all.
and its until further notice.
i'll try to post. but it depends what my parents say.
so yeah.
there shall be no more day to day.
even though this is only the second day of me starting this.
so hopefully these three post for one day will be good enough for you guys.
if not. i'll try to post again as soon as possible.
anyways.
hope you guys are all doing okay.
pray i get my work done soon so i can get my lovely lappy back.
i'm already having withdrawls and its not even gone yet.
lol.
i'm so lame.


xoxo,
bekah

nun. part 2.

so maybe i won't be a nun.
how about a half nun?
you know like.
i enjoy hanging out with guys.
and being their friends.
but i shall not date them.
sounds good to me.

oh what now?
bekah so just made like a word.
and defined it!
[[insert party dance music here]]


xoxo,
bekah

pray.pray.pray

for my family please.
[[can't really go into details]]
but i just need some prayer right now.
that would be awesome of you guys.


well. bekah update.
life. is well.
going on.
ugh.
its that stupid thing again.
where i get my hopes up.
and then see them crash down.


i'm going to become a nun.
no but for real this time.
i'm sick of drama.
and crap.
and what not.
from those people of the other species.
so yeah.
bekah is now.
officially.
a nun.

what now?!

xoxo,
bekah

the story of me.

is basically what this is all about.
its my.witty.crazy.dramatic.physco.of a life

come along for the journey.
should be interesting.


xoxo,
bekah