confusion to the maxo.

seriously guys.
i'm so confused with life right now!
UGH! BLAH! GRR!
it's just that.
umm. well.
okay i'm going to attempt to tell you guys without actually telling you guys.
due to the fact that this is NOT something i want posted on the internet nor documented in any way.
so i'm told that something COULD happen.
and that the likely hood of it happening is GOOD!
yet.
that was told to me like a month ago.
and it has YET to happen.
so advice time for me.
WHAT DO I DO?
have hope still or do i give up and do something else?!
is this confusing? i'm sure it is.
but i can't really tell you guys.
well at least not now.
maybe.
but not now. as in right at this very moment.
lol. yes we all do know that i'm crazy.
and no i will not join your support group =PP

alright i'm out!



xoxo,
bekah