Digging deep here...

So as of late, I had not had much of a "want" to write...

Or update my blog...

Or really do much of anything i guess?

Besides go to class, gym(on the rare day), and then work, hang out with friends, and sleep...

I've realized I need something to do again...

so what do i do to dig down deep and find my inspiration again?

I watch Julie&Julia =]]]

yes, it is my inspiration, although i have no desire to start cooking...but i do have a desire to write until my heart is content! and i wanna get back into reading...

why did i give these things up in the first place?

they were so much a part of me, for real, like my friends use to call me "Bek and a Book"

you dont get a name like that for just nothing right?

Right.

okay. so I'm jumping back in. For real.

I have such motivation to start writing, i just dont know what to write yet, but i know i have the motivation and i wanna get this done! for real! i want it. again.

(hehe)

well thats all. for now.

I love drinking from wine glasses =]]

xoxo,

bekah

As seen below...

I am starting a new blog series on my blog...
Don't know how long it will be...

but it is called

"being a high school student in a college class"


I'm taking two college classes this summer and will be writing down my lovely experiences =]]
I'm taking Calculus 1 (which could be the death of me) and US History! So far I am understanding the Calculus to an extent...BUT...I'm loving the US History class...I take a lot of notes in class but the professor is just great and super funny and makes it waaaaaay more interesting...
Especially if you are like me and have been taking US History for what seems like since ummm forever?! So yeah, that's what's happening...



xoxo,
bekah

being a high school student in a college class

LESSON 1.

If you decide to openly state that you are not yet even out of high school then you will have to make a name for yourself in the class. Best case scenario: You end up having a history major in your US History class who thinks he is all that and starts answering questions wrong, therefore you can come up behind him and "speak the truth."
(Lol! Yes i felt super smart after doing that to a guy.)


xoxo,
bekah

Two days. One Week. First day.

Two days.

I ONLY HAVE TWO MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL!
yeah, i'm kinda stocked =]]]


One week.

I will have exactly one week of summer vacation. Which, to be honest, won't be so bad...


First day.

June 1st is my first day of college! I'm so stocked!
Like for real...its so crazy, that I'm about to start college! I'm so close and I can NOT wait!

OH! ALSO!
June 4, 2010 will be the first official day that I'll be a senior!!!!!!!!
ME? A SENIOR?! I've only ever dreamed of this day and now its here!
I can't believe it! by the end of next week I'll be a senior!
And then the countdown will start till Graduation =P
Oh I'm so excited!


-This will be a good two weeks. Most def.-
Nothing could get me down now =]]


xoxo,
bekah

7:00 in the morning...on a SATURDAY!

its official.
I most likely will not be able to sleep in, I think I have lost all abilities to stay up to late hours of the night and to wake up at late hours of the morning/afternoon times...
how sad is that?!

Well I guess I shouldn't be too upset right?
I mean I'll be kinda busy all the time this summer and I'll have to start my mornings off early anyways due to my Calculus class starting at 7:45 AM. oh bother.
(I WANTED TO DO THIS. I WANTED TO DO THIS.)

hehe!
naw i'm totally okay with all this, I mean like I said I wanted to do this! and besides if I get a head start then I'll graduate earlier =]]]
the earlier I graduate the earlier I can start teaching
the earlier I start teaching the sooner I will be making money!
the sooner I start making money the sooner I can save up money to go back to college
the sooner I can go back to college the sooner I can work on getting my PHD in Shakespearean Poetry and Literature
and the sooner I get my PHD the sooner I can move to England and start teaching there as a college professor =]]]]]]]]]]]]

oh yes I have this all planned out =D
and i'm beyond excited!



xoxo,
bekah

time heals all wounds...

You know, whenever someone would say that to me

I would always brush it off and be like yeah right, you aren't the one going through this...

But I never fully took in the full meaning of this short phrase and the truth that lies within.

Time really is the best antibiotic for a broken heart. When you let yourself go through the period of missing, hurting, anger, searching, and finally coming to the FATHER for healing, that broken heart will be restored completely new. But then that heart still needs time, its new and fragile, until you can restore the friendship that was lost. God will tell you when your heart is strong enough to handle the pain again and give you an opening that will be the perfect moment to start a new the friendship you have missed.

I had lost one of my best friends I had ever had, and I thought that he would never want to talk to me again and had written me off. Turns out he was going through the same thing, and now God opened the door between us to start that deeply missed friendship once again. Its one of the best feelings to know that I have my best friend back again and everything just went back to the way they had been before. The hurt and pain are all a thing of the past and matter no more. But rather we just fell back into the usual steps we had been before everything happened.

I am beyond happy =]]]

xoxo,

bekah

ps. I'll go back to witty comments tomorrow =P

long time. no post. my B!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY =]]]

so what are mothers for? I shall tell you...Mothers are for...

1. Gossipping- whenever you hear some new juicy news about someone who do you mostly run to? Your mother of course!
2. Laughing- how many times have you sat down for a serious conversation with your mom and ended up laughing your head off about something completely different?
3. Dancing- with my mom, the best way to annoy her is to start dancing with her, especially if she is trying to do something =P
4. Singing- if you can really sing and i mean REALLY sing infront of your mother and she infront of you, and you still look at each other the same, that's saying something!
5. Shopping- "So save up your money, so you can spend more of it on me" -no lie my mother has said this to me! not the other way around-
6. Crying- moms dont have to ask, they just know, and they are there with their comforting shoulder to lean on and cry your eyes out
7. Watching movies- nothing better than movie nights with your mom, if you can actually pick a movie to watch though, and if you can get your mother to sit down through the whole movie...hehe
8. Getting ready- morning are just better when you can talk as you get ready, though you might get blammed later for making her late because you talk to much
9. Cooking- nothing like a mother daughter cooking/bonding time =D makes them feel better if they can pass some knowledge on to you
10. Being your best friend- my mom is my mother first, and best friend second, and I wouldn't have it any other way. She's the best friend any girl could ask for, she'll always be honest, tell you how it is, laugh with you, but can be serious when the time comes. She is my inspiration in life and the best mom in the world! I could never ask for someone better than the loving mother that I have =]]]

I LOVE YOU MOMMY =]]]]

xoxo,
bekah